Eleanor

Dear Diary: I Miss Him

Hello loves!

I'm sorry this update took me so long, it was harder to write than I thought it would be.

I want to thank all of you, you all have been so amazing with voting and commenting, I'm blown away by it.

Anyway I know this is a diary entry but I'm going to take a risk and ask for more comments and votes. This story has finally broke the top 100 and I really would like to see if it can get in the top 50. So for this chapter I am saying it needs at least 30 comments and 45 votes for me to post the next update. I know you all won't disapoint.

Well, I hope you enjoy!

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Dear Diary,

Danielle said it would be hard at first, I just didn't think it would be this hard. And it's raining and I'm just feeling so sad right now. I know Louis is only going to be gone for a few weeks, and it's not like we haven't gone our whole relationship being long distance, but this is the first time that he's further than a few hours by train, plane or car.

We spent the whole weekend before he left together, but taking him to the airport was honestly harder than I ever thought possible. I cried on the train back to Manchester and thought I had gotten it all out of my system, but then that night when I went to bed and I wasn't able to talk to him before going to sleep, I just lost it all over again. He had tried to prepare me, saying that we were not going to be able to talk that much at first. He said that once they landed in Australia they were busy right off, with signings and interviews. And he has texted me and called me as often as he could, it's just with the time difference we always seem to miss each other one way or another.

I've been trying to drown myself in school work, spending more time studying, working a little extra on essays and papers, however every now and then the smallest of thing will make me miss him. I feel like I spend more time looking at my phone than anything else. And I know its only going to get worse the next couple of weeks. It's slowly starting to torment me.

And if I'm being honest the worst is at night you know, because I'm so sleepy and soft and all I want to do is nuzzle up under his chin and run my fingers down his arm like I always do when we're together-you know. Or I just want to talk to him, hear his voice and laugh before I fall asleep. But sometimes I close my eyes and try to picture him perfectly, even if he was nowhere in sight. My favorite is his eyes, those bright blue and green pigments of Louis' eyes are forever etched into my brain. Just seeing those deep pools of energy and excitement, always so full of life and laughter makes him being away a little better. But then I open my eyes and remember that he's far away in Australia and I'm back at square one.

I guess that's the worst part about loving someone, you have to miss them. It's funny how love has the ability to make you upset about the one thing that makes you happiest.

Well, I'm going to go and try to call Louis one last time before I go to sleep. Maybe I'll be lucky and get him this time.

XO,

   

Eleanor

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Thank you so much for reading and what did you think? Please leave a comment and let me know.

Remember this chapter needs at least 30 comments and 45 votes for the next update.

Also, I have started a new story called The Misadventures of Mille McConnell, it's a Harry and Niall romantic comedy. I have already posted the prologue, and would adore it if you would take the time to check it out and let me know what you think.

Thanks again for reading!

I LOVE YOU ALL!