It's Complicated- an O2L Fan Fic

The meeting with Ricky

I took a deep breath as I walked into the O2L house. The place that used to feel like home was now hanging on a thread. I could either be able to fix my life, or it would be over for forever.

        The first person I saw was Trevor. He was sitting with a text book in his hand. I decided to ask Trevor, "What's up." I wasn't sure if I actually wanted to help him, or if I just wanted to postpone talking to Ricky.

        Trevor sighed and set down the book, "Kian said he would help me study for my finals, but bailed."

        "Oh." I replied, "I'll help you study, but I have to go talk to Ricky."

        "Okay." Trevor replied, brightening up a bit, picking up his book again.

        I took another deep breath as I climbed the stairs to Ricky's room. Each step I took felt like my foot was 100 pounds. I was standing at Ricky's door, much sooner than I would have liked. I opened it slowly.

        Ricky was lying in his bed, resorting to his old habit of running his hand through his hair when he was stressed.

        "Hey." I sighed sitting down in his desk chair.

        He sat up. He was staring at his pokemon doll sitting on the desk. Without looking at me he asked, "Is there a reason you don't want to be with me?"

        "I want to be with you Ricky. There's no reason I wouldn't want to be with you." I replied. There were already tears threatening to spill from my eyes.

        "I want  you tell me the truth." Ricky cried. Neither of us were looking at eachother, but I could tell he was crying, "Are you cheating on me with Connor?"

        "Of course not." I sobbed, "Why would you think that?"

        "You have spent double the amount of time you've spent with me this month with him." He said taking a deep breath, "I could handle it if you could tell me why you were hanging out with him so much."

        "I can't." I could feel a warm tear run down my cheek.

        "Theres my problem." Ricky said, "You can't trust me, so why should I trust you?"

        "Ricky!" I sobbed.

        "I can't be with someone that I can't trust. I mean, i really like you. I really do, but I can't handle this. Never knowing whats going on when you and Connor go to Starbucks, or when you come over and go to his room and ignore me. How am I suppost to know what goes on behind closed doors."

        "You're suppost to be able to trust me." I said. I was in tears. I couldn't help it. I was balling.

        "But I can't." He said. I looked up. He was looking me straight in the eyes, "and I'm so sorry."

        He was crying to. I had only seen him cry a few other times. I couldn't handle it. I just sat there bawling. I could hear the door downstairs open and I could hear Kian and Sam laughing. I calmed myself down and went across the hall to the bathroom and washed my face. Under my eyes were red and I had tear stains down my cheeks. I finshed washing up then grabbed my mini makeup bag from under the sink. I took one last deep breathe before I left.

        I walked down the stairs and the boys all tried to great me. I ingnored them and kept walking. They called after me, "Lani! What's wrong? LANI!"

        The last thing I heard before I slammed the door was Connor's voice, "Lani wait up!"

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