Shitty Poems

Today, a year ago

Today, a year ago

I wrote the words

I LOVE YOU

in a letter to you

And I meant them.

I made sure you knew

By giving you a ring

That I made.

And poured my heart and soul into

So that you could own them.

It was a promise ring.

I promised my heart to you.

You made us necklaces

That pieced together

To form a heart.

Because neither of us

Was complete

Without the other.

You also wrote me a letter.

And in it

Made me believe

That I was

Beautiful

And smart

And talented.

You also wrote

I LOVE YOU

After reading it

I knew that you

We're the person

I wanted to wake up to every morning

To kiss under an umbrella in the rain

To shamelessly hold hands with

To sing duets with

To give flowers to

To read poems to

To bake with

To cuddle under blankets with

To spend the rest of my life with.

I wanted to

Come home to you after school or work

To attend a graduation ceremony for

To go on road trips with

To buy a house with

To get a pet with

To raise a family with

To marry.

Today, a year ago

I promised you my heart.

Today, my heart aches for you.

I haven't seen you

For forever.

I haven't talked to you

For longer than that.

And to think,

We were sharing kisses

Today, a year ago.

We both hurt each other

And we both hated each other.

But the truth is

I wish I could hate you

But I also wish to fix everything

I also wish to apologise to you

To make up with you.

I wish I could hate you

But I can't.

I miss you.

I want to see your face again

Your eyes

Your smile

I want to hear your voice again

I want to hold your hand again

But I'm scared.

I let down my walls for you

But you only reminded me

Why I built them so high

In the first place.

I'm scared

But I still miss you.

Today, a year ago

I promised my heart to you

And you still have it.

I wonder

Do I still have yours?

Do you think about me?

Do you cry about me?

Have you ripped up all my letters?

Do you still have your necklace?

And the flowers I gave you?

Do you think about us?

And the WHAT IFS?

How we almost had it all?

Do you feel nostalgic when you see

Things you used to do with me?

Did you want to spend the rest of your life

With me?

Do you want to hate me?

Do you miss me too?

Because I miss you.

And I miss

Today, a year ago.

Because

Today, a year ago

You were mine.

And I was yours.

And I loved you.

I loved you

Today, a year ago.

A.N. yEEt