We've come so far since our break up, haven't we?
I guess you don't miss me?
Well, that's one question I posed to unnamed muses
That has been answered.
Once, I believed that looking into your eyes forever
Could be my world,
Now, you're pretending that we never happened.
What did I do?
Did I steal your first kiss?
Well, I'm sorry but it wasn't my fault you told your friends about us
And how terrible I was and am.
I'm sorry you're having to convince people
(via Instagram of all things)
That you have never kissed a girl.
I can still remember that day
As clearly as yesterday
And I know you can too.
Then, we were willing to risk being disowned
For being together
For being us.
Being us was legal then
But frowned upon by many people
Including our families
And some friends...
It was wrong in so many ways
But by God, in the moment
It felt more right than anything else in the world.
If you ask me if I regret it
I would reply that it depends on the day.
But if you ask me if I would repeat it...
I could live in that moment forever.
You said that day was the happiest day of your life.
I wish it were different,
But it hurts me
That you are now saying that it never happened.
There was a time when I tried to deny what happened too.
It went on for almost 30 weeks.
Something like that is wounding, I know
And sometimes it's easier to keep your eyes on the horizon
Than look down
And notice that you're bleeding.
But now I accept this battle scar
I don't wear it with pride,
Not at all.
But I accept that it's there.
No matter how much you wish it would go away
It will still be there.
When the hands of time have willed it to fade
It will still be there.
Even if you try to hide it every day
It will still be there.
Although you hate it
It will still be there.
Even if you can't forgive
It will still be there.
Even if you pretend it doesn't exist
Even if you pretend it didn't exist
Even if you pretend we didn't exist
Even if you pretend
I am still here.
A.N. GIF = Me being alive
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Shitty Poems
PoezieA collection of shitty poems that I have written. I own the cover. Constructive criticism would be great. Pls comment anything I live for comments and flowers. Infrequent updates.
