Ablackwing

Side Story: Unworthy

I was crying.

But how could I stop my tears? She didn't remember me! Even though I already knew that Gaia would have erased her memories on that day but I still hoped that she would remember it all. Somehow...

She came near me and placed her warm hands gently over my face while staring in my eyes. Her gaze was so.... heavenly. Even mother does not feel this heavenly to me. She started wiping away my tears with her thumb. It was exactly like that day. Her actions carried an echo of the time when it all began. My angel didn't change at all.

In her beautiful eyes were questions, about me, about my tears. I wanted to tell her everything she had forgotten. I wanted her to remember that night when I fell in love with her.

My mouth opened, wanting to tell her things she didn't know. But those memories flashed in my mind before any word could escape.

The memory of how she redeemed me from the darkness of my heart. The memory of how she cursed me with a new life by sacrificing something very precious to her. The memory of how I had sworn to devote my life for her and protect her forever.

Ten years later, we meet again. But what happens? She protects me again. I couldn't fulfil a single promise. I couldn't become the angel she desired me to be. Instead, I obeyed the darkness inside me like a madman.

I couldn't tell her anything. I feared that she'd be disappointed in me. I feared she would leave me if I told her everything.

I was unworthy of even being near this person who possessed the purest of hearts. I was unworthy of her affection.

Not yet, at least.