Dom's Absolution

Ch. 15 - Acceptance

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"When have I ever shown you
all of my cards, Commissioner?"

- Dominic
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Chapter 15 - Acceptance 

▪️D O M I N I C▪️

I grumbled while sitting alone in the backseat of one of the four identical black SUVs, heading to a meeting. When driving around the city, I usually had a few decoys. It was something that I also did for Jade.

Of course, there were times when I just drove myself around in one of my many flashy cars. However, I knew that sometimes I needed to be more cautious and take my safety into consideration.

The lights of the city at night always calmed me. But tonight, it seemed like my irritation just could not be contained.

"Dammit!" I growled softly.

These last five months had me more on edge than ever before, as Jade and Cristiano continued to date.

I had to give the boy credit; he had some balls on him. After my appearance at their first date, I had been sure that shoving my gun down the teen's throat would have scared him off. Though, it seemed that Cristiano's fondness for Jade overpowered his fears.

Fiddling with my switchblade, I mumbled, "I'm thirty-three years old and I'm getting rattled over a nineteen-year-old. What the fuck is happening to me?"

In all my years alive, I had never been attracted to younger women.

In fact, I was never interested in anyone, period. Especially where emotions were involved, it was inconceivable to me that I would ever be capable of feeling such for another person. I was just too fucked up in the head to have what was considered a 'normal' relationship.

Naturally, my body had urges, but that was an easy fix as I would take my pleasures from a few select call girls provided by Aleksandr. Before any transactions were involved, the women were thoroughly informed on what they were in for.

I did not need my ego stroked, nor did I need a listening ear. I simply needed to use them.

With their consent, they would be gagged and bound as I had my way with them. No one was ever allowed to touch me; those were the rules, and that was just how things were.

Unfortunately, now, with Jade, things were different.

To this day, I still did not know why I allowed her to touch my skin. I had decided that I probably would never know. I was crazy enough as it was, and I did not need to bombard my already over-worked brain.

Lately, I found myself wanting to feel her hands on me, the touch of her fingers against my own. Such a simple act, yet it scared me. No matter how many women I had pounded myself into, it did not help quench the fiery need that I felt.

Things had become abundantly clear to me. Where Jade was concerned, my emotions towards her had definitely changed, and I hated it!

These last few months, I would sit aimlessly in my office, trying to figure out when my feelings for her had shifted. Perhaps it was on the night that we kissed for her nineteenth birthday, or maybe it was seeing her with Cristiano, getting ready to go on their first date.

Either way, I could not keep lying to myself.

"If the circumstances were different, I would have just fucked her out of my system. Surely this is just a temporary feeling..." I said unconvincingly to myself.