Our Parents Pain Came With Love

Chapter 6

-YANDISWA BESS

“how did we get here?”

I ask laying on my husband’s chest, he kisses my head

“My past is finally catching up with me”

He says

“Our past”

I correct and kiss his chest

“You not the same person you were 21 years ago Melo. Let it go”

I say and he sighs

“Yeah I’m not but he thinks I am. Yaya I live for those kids and now they hate me”

I raise my head

“They don’t hate you. They only just found out, give them time ok? Miso has nothing against you and neither does Kyle. Aya is a girl, we take these things way too personal. With time they are all going to see that you are not the person you were all those years ago”

I say and kiss his parted lips then lay back on his chest

“Thank you Mafaku for forgiving me and staying with me”

He says

“It's not like I had a choice”

I joke and he chuckles

“rather the devil I know than the one I don’t”

I say and he laughs

“so I’m the devil?”

he asks

“You my devil and I love you Melo. My love for you has only ever grown over the years and will continue to grow”

I assure him

“yi-draw”

He says and I laugh

“I pour my heart out and all you say is that? Hay Melokuhle Bess tshini”

He laughs

“you know I’m only pulling your leg. So what about you and your sister?”

He asks

“What about us?”

I ask

“You know what I mean Yaya”

I sigh

“At the moment I am mad at her and don’t want anything to do with her. She is the reason for all this”

I say in an accusatory tone. The difference between me and her is that Melo never abused me, he never hit continuously like her. Yes he raped me at some point but that was years ago and I forgave him and even forgot about it at some point because all the good he has done outweighs that one bad thing he did. Imagine if God judged us for that one crime we committed and ignored all the good we did? Where would we be? I’m not God but if life has taught me anything it is to forgive.