i forgot the melody • 𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙠𝙤𝙤𝙠

𝓲𝓯𝓽𝓶 XXXI

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I heard Finn mumbled, 'oh shit.' I remained quiet, my body refuses to move. Chesca is shocked as well. While Jed...

Well he is still Jed. I don't want to look at him, I feel like if I make an attempt, my eyes will burn, so does my heart. However, my eyes have a separate life, in the end I can't help but observe him. I felt my face heated, for how long did I not saw his face? To think I'm head over heels for him before, BEFORE.

He seems taller... His hair is also longer. And he looked mature. I remembered how he's slim buff back then, right now, his biceps and thighs look like they can crush me in a heartbeat. My eyes widened, what the fuck am I thinking? No. Why am I even looking at him? Gosh.

But maybe it's alright since he's not even looking at me. He's staring at... Finn? No maybe Chesca? I don't know. I shouldn't care!

I faked a cough. Jed's eyes lazily directed towards me, again, I felt my face heated. Don't look at me! Pretend I'm invisible and non existent!

"I uhh, I should rest, Chesca, my head is throbbing."

Chesca looked at me with concern etched on her face. She was about to ask something but I rapidly went upstairs towards the room I am currently staying in.

I jumped on the bed, grabbed a pillow and screamed with my everything. Why is he here? After all this time, why did he come back? He should've stayed away. Away from me. I'm no good for him after all.

After punching my bed and rolling on it like crazy, I stood up. Gosh, I promised the band to make them cookies. I was about to step out when I stumbled across a luggage on my way. I don't remember having a luggage here.

I sat quietly thinking where it came from when it dawned on me. Is this Jed's? Why is it here?

Oh yeah, I remembered, Jed's room became a stock room temporarily. I face palmed. He doesn't know about me staying in here anyways. Just then I realized how I'm holding my breath since earlier. This is sickening. I hate this.

My eyes suddenly warmed up. I felt my nose became itchy and my breathing hitched. Am I really about to cry right now? I can't cry, I shouldn't... but the liquid residing the side of my eye is about to fall down.

Just when tears was about to roll down my cheeks, someone entered the room.

"My luggage— are you crying?"
Jed's voice, although showing concern through his question, gave me chills. It sounds so cold. So distant. Unfamiliar. Opposite of what he promised me back then.

"I want to pursue music. The band will be big, we will travel around the world... In different cities, tourist spots. And you will be there with me."

Jed's hand felt cold because of the night breeze, but to me, these hands are cupping my heart and warming my soul.

"When you're big and famous, you will gain a lot of fangirls."

His smile widened, he brushed my cheek with his thumb.
"It's not yet happening, but you're already jealous?"

I swatted his hands away from me.
"As if you're not a girl magnet right now. I have to deal with those glares and sneers everytime we're together."