Constant
I couldn't sleep.
I couldn't sleep that night.
Not after what I just found out.
Not after that staggering revelation.
Not at all.
So... they didn't kiss.
They didn't.
And... there was nothing between them.
All along.
It left me staring at my ceiling all night long.
Bakit... hindi niya sinabi?
Hindi nga ba?
O hindi ko hinayaang sabihin niya?
The thought made me wanting to submerge deeper on my bed. Of course it's the latter. I feel so stupid. How can I make things more complicated than it already was? I can't help but bit my lip in anguish.
Lalo na nang maalala ko ang mga sinabi ko kanina para lang maitaboy siya. I closed my eyes tightly in regret as the scene started flashing and playing on my mind.
"Magkano ba ang itinulong niyo sa pamilya namin? Sabihin mo na lang para mapag-ipunan ko na. Kahit pa magkanda-kuba na ko sa pagbabayad titiisin ko. Kung yun lang ang tanging paraan para lubayan mo na 'ko,"
His eyes slowly fell with sorrow at what I said.
"That's... how much.. you dislike being with me?" hindi niya na naitago ang hinanakit sa boses niya habang binibitawan ang mga salita.
Mas labis pa 'kong napapikit nang mariin.
Damn. The way he uttered the words.. it almost seem like he's on the verge of letting go.
What if he really do? What if he really do give up this time?
The thought made me feel terrified.
Akala ko'y buong magdamag na akong hindi makakatulog. Madaling araw na nang makaramdam ng pagod ang utak ko at tuluyan nang hinila ng antok.
I woke up from the loud ringing of my phone the next morning.
I reached for it on the bedside table without opening my eyes. I just slept about a few hours ago and my head still feels heavy.
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