Short Stories

Disappearing Feeling

The crickets chirped loudly. They wouldn't let clock sleep. Clock watched everyone else in the field sleeping soundly like nothing was wrong. He was jealous. These damn bugs wouldn't let him be at peace with himself. His head ached with tiredness and begged him to go to sleep, but no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't.

Not only that, but his mind was swirling with thoughts. Thoughts of self doubt and worry. There must've been a reason his team forgot him... Was he.. really that unlikeable? Was he? What did he do?

Everybody had forgotten about him.. it made him want to disappear again, because at this point he was practically a ghost to everyone. Who knows, maybe nobody would have cared if he had never been recovered.

He sighed, rolling onto his back to look up at the night sky again. Usually he'd find solace when looking at the stars, or thinking about them, but he couldn't this time. It all just came down to the thoughts, that centered around a main piece.

"If you were gone the world would change for the better."

"If you were gone the world wouldn't care."

Clock felt an itch on his back. And he couldn't reach it either. He started rubbing his back on the floor to scratch it.

He hated his life at the moment. Nobody seemed to care and he was at such a disadvantage compared to everyone else.

He sighed again, sitting up. He shut his eyes. The crickets seemed to go away. At least there was that he could be happy about.

But what if he.. did.. disappear..?

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This story didn't go anywhere and it didn't have an ending. I honestly just want to post something for the heck of it. I also made this cause I am really really doubting myself atm and I cannot handle all these damn thoughts and worried flooding my mind all the time. Cause that's all I've been really thinking about the last hour. Just negative thoughts. Self doubt and stuff. I just want it to stop. I just wish I didn't exist sometimes. I questioned just deleting myself from the internet so many times in the past few hours, it's unreal. Ughhhh whatever. Whatever. It's nothing I should really be talking about anyway, but here I am. I'm too lazy to rewrite this tho, so I guess this'll be here. Goodnight.