VLS 3: ZARRICK'S POSSESSION

THIRTY SEVEN

ZARRICK COULDN'T deny the fact that he felt relieved but he was more feeling exquisite gladness. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam ng mga narinig niya sa babae. The words she had said made him feel contented and most of all thankful that she was still madly inlove to him.

"Zarrick... I'm sorry again"

Zarrick couldn't help himself from smiling. Pinakawalan niya ang kaniyang ngiti dahil talagang masayang-masaya siya. This is the corny thing he will say, parang nasa ulap siya at ang gaan gaan sa pakiramdam. Dinuduyan siya ng mga sinasabi ng dalaga.

Nakayuko parin ito, hindi magawang iangat ang mukha upang tumingin sa kaniya. Susulyap ng isang segundo pagkatapos ay nahihiya nanamang yuyuko. Hindi nagtatagal ang pagsasalubong ng mga mata nila.

Amusement was dancing on his eyes while looking at Erriah. Hindi niya man alam kung anong hinihingi ng tawad ng babae ay natatawa parin siya. Hindi niya nga alam kung bakit nagtatakbo pa ito kanina masalubong lang siya ng yakap.

"I'm sorry, Zarrick. My mind wasn't opened with your explanation before. Hindi ko manlang hinintay kung ipaglalaban mo ba ako. The only matter for me before was I don't want to ruin your family, bubuo kayo ng pamilya ni Ate Shel and I don't want to steal you from them. You...you will have your own family and you kept on fcking me—" he cutted her words, sa isang iglap ay hindi na niya gusto ang lumalabas sa bibig nito.

"That wasn't a plain fcking for me,Erriah. When I first took you, it was a love making. Don't consider that as a plain fck,Erriah, because it wasn't. It wasn't" madiin na anito. Lumuwag ang pagkakahawak niya sa mga kamay nito. Erriah quickly moved her head up, looking at him with her wide opened eyes. Hindi yata nito inaasahan ang mga sinabi niya. Well, if he was still the same Zarrick before, baka kung ano anong kagaguhan nanaman ang lumabas sa kaniyang bibig, but he became the person he thought he'd never be. Subalit, mas gusto niya kung ano siya ngayon. He learned the art of loving, the reason why he lived and the person he wants to be because of the woman in front of him. Si Erriah, sa hindi niya inaasahang pagkakataon ay makakaya pala siya nitong baguhin.

"Was it?"

"Yes! It was a making love for me,Erriah. I took you that time because I wanted you to stay at my side, always. I did take you to prove that you are mine, actually mine. I want you, doll. Not just your body, but also your heart"

"But—"

"Erriah, believe me or not. I love you"

Sa pagsabog niyang 'yon ay gumaan ang kaniyang pakiramdam. Ang pagtatapat niya ng kaniyang nararamdaman sa babae ang pinakamagandang bagay na ginawa niya. He loves her too much na kahit ang bagay na hindi niya inasam noon ay gusto niyang makuha ngayon.

He still remembers himself saying he wouldn't be fooled by women. Ang mga babae ay para lang sa pagpapaligaya sa kanilang mga lalaki. Ginawa ang mga babae para ibigay lang ang pangangailangan nila, and they will just say yes to their every wants and commands, walang angal na susunod. Ang tanging purpose lamang ng mga babae ay ang lumuhod sa kanilang mga lalaki at ang paligayahin sila.

He believed that since the day he saw his mother kneeling at his father. Wala itong lakas na ipagtanggol ang sarili sa kaniyang ama, naroon lamang ang Ginang, nakaluhod at nagmamakaawa na huwag itong iwan ng kaniyang ama. But before witnessing that circumstances, he saw her mother kissing another man. He was one of their bodyguards, may magandang mukha at kayang magbigay ng ligaya sa kaniyang ina. Doon niya nakita na kahit gaano kadalas sabihin ng isang babae na mahal niya ang isang lalaki ay maghahanap parin ito ng iba. Taksil ang mga ito na hindi dapat pagkatiwalaan. Namulat siya sa ganoong pag-iisip. So, he decided to just play along. Kung ganoon din naman ang mangyayari ay uunahan na niya ang mga ito.