ABDICATION

55.

"You are very aware that we can't continue this for long." I gasped pulling my mouth away from his for a moment.

"As aware as you are this is not going to stop me."  He chuckled before he latch his lips to mine again. I protest to breath but he was in no mood of letting me go.

He let out an angry growl when I bring my fingers between our lips. He pinched my ribs as if warning me.

"We only have two weeks." He insisted.

"We only have two weeks." I stated.

He let out a breath and join our foreheads.

"I want to spend my every second with you." He disclosed. Me too.  God knows how much I want this.

"It's going to hurt so bad in the end." I had to ruin the moment. This thought have been deep set in my head.  I'm scared of leaving. And it's ruining my present.

"Come with me." His hand ran down my arms to clasp my fingers in his.

"I'm not going back to your room." I huffed. The disrespect I felt today is still fresh in my memories. What hurt more is how much true it was. I suddenly blinked my eyes to disappear those thoughts. I can't be distracted.

"What's wrong?" I heard his deep voice in my ear. I shivered and felt giddy.

"Does it still feels wrong to you?" He asked genuinely. His fingers lingering on my lower lip and I couldn't help but have a second thought. I didn't wanted to hurt him but I couldn't ignore the deep seeded rules I would be breaking.

"I can see you are over thinking it." He searched my eyes. I felt my eyes turning ticklish before my vision blurred with tears.

"Love?" He called and pull me into his arms. He keep my face pressed to his neck and ran his hands in my locks.  I could sense his heartbeat beneath my fingers which rest on his chest. His fingers lingers on my scalp giving it a light massage which made my body hum in delight.

Why can't we be like this? Why is it so difficult? When I was kid I too dreamed about my prince charming. Never ever I thought it to be a real prince. 

But I had to mess up. 

I had to mess up this bad.

Right person but wrong time. 

"Come with me. " he asks me nicely this time and this time I didn't protest. Maybe I should just let it go. I should try to stop figuring it out and let go of the worries of future.

"Dress up. " he commanded..

I hesitantly get off the edge of window and move to the bed. I ties my hairs back in turban and put those ugly moustaches again. I look around to find him closing my cupboard. He had something in his hands but I was too tense to think about that.

I didn't questioned when he clasp my palm again and drag me out of the room. Luckily no one was there.

"Wait for me outside the palace." He commanded when he let go of my hand.."I will bring the horse."

My eyes widen.

"Are we running away?" At that time I wasn't sure if I should be happy or sad.

His eyes had a glint in them when he step closer to me. Holding my jaw in his fingers he asked.

"No. But do you want to?" His eyes held something exciting in it.

He is going to be a king. You are here to help him to be a better king.

This is our inky reality.

"No." I shake my head and his eyes fell in disappointment.

Then just wonder what would he do if I said yes. But no we can't do that.

"I'll bring the horses." He patted my cheek and left.

When I reached outside the palace i saw the dark sky of night.

Dark as my life.

Where you can't see anything clear but still it feel so nice.

I turn at the sound of horses neigh. I smiled at the horse. A quick glimpse of horse race flooded my head.

Then the Prince arrive with a black and a white horse. Handing ones ropes to Me he get on his white horse. I copied him and get on my black one.

"How about a race, love? " without looking at him i knew he was smirking.

"Don't you remember I won the horse race.?" I remind him.

"You won because I wasn't participating. " he boosted and I raised my eye brows.

"Where to? " I asked getting ready to run.

"To Me." He laughed and ran.

I rolled my eyes and followed him closely. The wind was cool and It made me shudder. We passed houses, fields and open grounds.

"Are we going in the woods? At this time? " I asked from behind.

"Scared? " he asks and then laughed. "We will go there later some day. Today I want to show you a place."

A sudden excitement filled my nerves. He said that he like nature. He like exploring. And now he is going to show me a place. I couldn't help but feel closer to him now. When we are not even touching.

After few more moments he halted and get off his horse. He took the little bag he carried with him. I did the same and tied my horse to a tree just like he did.

"Come." He ask for my hands and I took it gladly.

Walking a little we both come face to face with a beautiful and wide riverside.  The cold winds erupt goosebumps on my arms and neck.  The air was fresh and smell like  forests.
I took a deep breath and felt my nose ticklish with the fake moustaches.

Knowing that nobody's here to see us, I removed that moustaches and reopen my hairs again.

What a relief.

All this time I felt his gaze at me..but I felt myself blushing.

I lick my lips before looking up at him. His eyes look so soft. And full of love.

He is not a prince right now.

He is randhir.

He step ahead to close gap between us. He bring his lips down but didn't meet mine. But I force them to meet his desperately.

He smiled into the kiss..

I frown when he pull away. Stepping back he start getting his robe off. My chest rise hight when my eyes travel down his neck to the hard planes of his chest. His skin shine in the moonlight. Letting his robe fall on the grass he began waking toward the river. I just stand there and watched him submerging in the water. When be came out after a dip, water droplets slide down from his face and neck back to the river. 

The sight did something to me.

He faced me and his eyes raked my body.  I suddenly felt naked in front of him.

"Join me. " he ordered in his husky voice  and a sudden jolt of electricity hit my lower belly.

I gulped and saw as he turn around as if giving me time to get undressed.

My heart jumped at the thought of being naked with him. But I can't wet these clothes too.

My eyes moved to the bag he carried with him. I could see a pair of clothes in it. He bring spare clothes for me.

I don't have to get undressed anymore.

I smiled at how thoughtful he had been.

Finally Taking a deep breath, I walked straight to the river.