Submission

31/ Explanation

This is gonna be a longgg one and at the same time hold a tissue that is if you'll ever used it though, I almost cried while writing this part.

{Kensho}

Ken-sho-; enlightment

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When his he going to wake? Once he wakes I'll hit him hard. Why has he put me in this stress? And wait drugs? What the fuck? Oh! He has a lot of explaining to do.

My mind was just wandering while I did CPR for him.

I heard a muffled voice and I paused, looking at him for a while before he moved his hands a smile made it way to my face as I walked to where he was.

"Jace! Can you hear me?" I asked shaking him so he won't die on me as his mouth fell open.

"Jace, come on talk to me" I pressed on.

"I won't be able to talk if you keep interrupting" he whispered and I exhaled out in relive.

"Are you okay?" I asked as he opened his eye lid revealing those blue eyes of his, looking up at me and a smile crept it way onto his face.

"Yes!" he replied

"Good"

"WHAT THE FUCK WHERE YOU THINKING? DRUGS? FUCK JACE!!!" I yelled out hitting him in every part of his body as he flinched taking it all, he knows very well he deserved it.

I stopped when he was already making pained noises.

"Did I hurt you?" I asked causing a smile onto his face again.

"You wake me, you hit me, now you're asking if I'm okay" he said still wearing that smile and I looked at him with pity.

"I'm sorry okay-I was just worried at the same time pissed" I say whispering the last part out and I felt water welling in my eyes now, I looked away from him.

He sighs.

"I did that?" he asked and I looked at him but couldn't see well cause of the tears that were threatening to fall.

"Come here!" he said spreading his hands for me to come into, I didn't even argue and I laid on him using his chest as my pillow as he wrapped his hands around me, though he was still wet from the amount of water I poured him earlier.

"I'm sorry for earlier, I wasn't thinking straight. I promise I never wanted to yell at you. Never" he apologized and I sighed.

"It okay" I say, sniffing and he stayed silent for a while before he sighs.

"I want to tell you everything, Emma" he say and I tilt my head up and meet his eyes, I sigh then placed my head down on his chest.

"Its okay if you don't want to tell me, I'm sorry I was poking earlier" I say and he was sitting up now as I withdrawn from his chest and sat up. He held my hands.

"Please do poke in my business" he pleaded and I stared at him as he inhaled before speaking again.

"My past wasn't very pleasant and now it affected my present and sometimes I don't know how to stop what I do , sometimes to hurt myself, hurt others or just end my pathetic life"

I gasped when he said the last words and he inhaled deeply before speaking again.

" I know I sound suicidal" he says before taking sharp breath again as if scared of what he was bout to tell me.

"Well it all started, when m--my-- father and mother fell in love and they lived a happy life, before my mother got pregnant and joy knew no bounds when they found out it was triplet in the family of Cornel but they say nothing last forever"