Unpredictable • cth

17

*TW mentions suicide and self harm!

Ella-

I would love to say that the two lovely men in my life were fighting over who sits next to me in the car, but I would be lying because there are 6 of them, and we are all stacked into Uncle Luke's suburban.

I am seated in the backseat in between my father and Ryder who are both seemingly ready to yank my arms out of my sockets just so they can be the one who comforts me.

Uncle Mikey and Ash are sitting on either side of Mia who insisted on being the car with us, but I want to kick Uncle Mikey out as he thinks twirling the end of my hair is calming me down.

Uncle Luke and Aunt Sierra are sitting in the front seats trying to find the fastest way to get me to an ER even though I have been insisting i'm fine the whole way there.

Caleb unfortunately was stuck in a car with a pregnant Aunt Crystal praying again the rosary, I didn't even realize she was Catholic but hey. Along with his mother who is probably just as freaked out as Aunt Crystal. They were playing Ave Maria in the car before we pulled out, so I hope he's doing alright over there.

"You ok?"

I could feel Ryder's hot breath against my ear as he  whispered so lightly I could barely hear him.

"Mhm."

This slight movement caused the car to become a ruckus, all the Uncles asking me if I need water or food or to lay down, Mia is now crying because she thought I started choking again, I swear sometimes she's so dense, and Aunt S whipped her head around to gently pat my thigh in a 'your gonna be ok' way.

"Can you all please calm down?" I said in the most aggravated yet painful tone which caused the entire car to return back to their original positions acting as if I didn't exist.

My eyes started to feel heavy again, slowly falling almost to a shut but I was forcing them open every time.

"Rest it's ok El."

My fathers deep voice was so soft, his hand gently guiding my head to rest into his shoulder, his over hand still firmly gripped in mine.

I was about to close my eyes with Ryder's thumb coasting up and down the back of my hand and my father giving the other squeezes every here and there but the car flew forward sending me with it.

"What the actual hell Luke?"

Uncle Ash was now reaching as far as he could to slap the back of his head but Mia ultimately pulled him back into his seat.

I was wheezing  again for air, the impact yanked me forward causing both the seatbelt and the men hands I was holding to fly me backwards into the seat with a large slam.

"Shit.." I was gasping in between each letter.

"Come on El, let's go."

I crossed both my hand over my chest, shaking my head back and forth as I continued to try and steady my breathing.

"Ella."

His was voice was stern but I first didn't like hospitals and second I felt relatively fine.

Before I knew what was happening Ryder was grabbing me under my arms and my father is pulling my legs to swing me out of the car.