A Rastro Story

38 Morning Breakfast

GLAIZA

Nanlumo ako sa mga narinig tungkol sa nangyare kay Rhian. I now understand where she's coming from and it's all because of me. Ako ang may kagagawan ng lahat ng nararamdaman niya and I want to take it all away ,all the negative thoughts that is consuming her.

Naiiyak ako sa isiping ganun pala kalaki ang naging epekto ng pag-iwan ko sakanya. Noon isang salita ko lang she will believe it no matter what. Ngayon kabaliktaran na. She build something in herself, a barrier that is in between us na kahit sabihin kong mahal ko siya she still has doubts dahil sa takot. Takot na naging trauma.

Dahan dahan kong pinihit ang doorknob, hindi nakalock, kaya naman malaya akong nakapasok sa kwarto niya. Hindi ko alam kung tulog na siya dahil nakatalukbong siya ng kumot.

" Baby Yoyon"-tawag ko sakanya.

Marahan akong lumapit at umupo sa kama. I heard her sniff.

" Baby, you okay?"- -tanong ko.

Wala pa din siyang sagot kundi singhot singa. Hai my Baby.

Sumukob na din ako sa ilalim ng kumot at yumakap mula sa likuran niya. Hindi pa kami nakakapagpalit ng damit.

" Yoyon let's get you change"- bulong ko.

Now I know what to do. I will treat her just the way I treat her before, she's stuck in there. I promise to myself I'll never do what I did before.

Tinanggal ko ang kumot sa katawan namin and she's still sobbing silently. Batang 'to oo, sa office parang dragon pagdating sakin pawikan.😆

Pinaharap ko siya sakin, nakapikit pa rin siyang umiiyak. I kiss her eyes and wipe her tears. Pinisil ko ang namumulang ilong niya and gently trace her lips.

" Are you mad at me?"-tanong ko.

Iling lang sinagot niya.

" Are you afraid of me?"-tanong ko uli.

And there she goes, she just admit it hindi siya sumagot pero sumiksik siya sa leeg ko and hug me tight.

" Why?"-I gently rub her back while asking her.

" I'm afraid you'll leave me just like before. You look so happy with her"-sagot niya.

Finally umimik din.

" Why would I do that? She's just a friend Yoyon. I'll introduce her to you next time. I'm so sorry Baby.''- alo ko.

" You said we're done"-akusa niya.

Siya 'tong nagsimula tapos ako pa sisisihin 😒.

" You said it first Rhian"-seryoso kong sagot.

" I-I didn't m-mean it"-utal niyang sagot.

" And you think I mean it?"-balik akusa ko sakanya.

" Yes, cause after you said it, you just leave me here alone!"-gumaralgal ang boses niya.

" I just want us to figure things out Rhian. But it doesn't mean that I'll leave you just like before. What do you want me to do then?"-suko ko na.

" Just stay here with me"-malambing niyang sagot and sniff my neck.

" Before I forgot. Bakit ba tuwing nakikita mo akong may kasamang iba takbo ka ng takbo? Sino ba ang tinatakbuhan mo ako o yung kasama ko?"-