MONSTERS, MAGIC, AND LOVE (Harry Potter x The 100 TV - crossover Fanfiction)

CHAPTER 9 - Knowing More - part 5

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(Continuation from Chapter 9 part 4)

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Bellamy and Draco are the ones on night-shift watch guard duty and the others settled into sleep and rest for another day.

Murphy would have wanted to join along with the two guys but then he didn't want to pass on the opportunity to sleep beside Luna without the overprotective blond mage Draco watching guardedly over his groups like a hawk eyeing another predator preaching on its territory or something.

Bellamy knew that his buddy would want that and get a little closer to his crush so he decided to help him out a little by accompanying Draco during the late-night guard shift. He also decided to have this chance to talk to Draco more and get to know him better.

"So what is it with you and Neville having it out at each other? Did he do something that makes you bear a grudge against him?" Bellamy had to ask when his sister Octavia had told him before about Draco's attitude towards his pseudo-brother.

Draco groaned and clarified calmly, turning away from looking through his binoculars to look at him. "No, it's nothing like that. I don't have anything against Neville--he just irks or annoys me all the time whenever he tries to 'lighten' me up from my 'Ice Prince' attitude. Granted, I don't need such enlightenment or encouragement of that matter--but Neville doesn't stop, thinking that my ice-cold persona should be lessened so that other people won't think badly of me from first sight."

"Why don't you?" Bellamy asked curiously confused on why Draco kept up with his kind of cold-like persona.

"Have you ever met another survivor, that is of the bad kind, and they tried taking advantage of you by unpleasant means to steal and take whatever they want?" Draco asked in a matter-of-fact tone like it sounds like he and his group have already gone through this kind of scenario before, sometime during the beginning of the monster apocalypse or something.

Bellamy flinched and his body language quickly revealed to Draco in answer that his group also has gone through something similar like that and judging from the way how he ducked his head shamefully, the blond mage figured that he must have been the one forced to kill the bad kind of survivor to protect his group and still regretted doing the killing deed as he believes to himself that he's a monster too just like the bad survivor that tried to harm his group.

"Don't feel too bad about it. You did what you had to do to protect your group. It doesn't make you a monster if you feel regret or shame upon killing someone. It still makes you human," Draco reassured and comforted him swiftly before Bellamy turned to such dark thoughts in his head. "If ever you didn't have such feelings--I would have noticed it instantly the day you first saw and found us."

"You...sound like you have experience on this..." Bellamy inquired hesitantly, his gut instincts telling him that what Draco said meant more than what he just did on his statement.

Draco instantly froze, tensing upon realizing what he just admitted, then after a minute--when in reality, it's just a few seconds--he sighed like this was already inevitable and he trusted Bellamy to keep it secret to himself and not tell anyone as he confessed. "Yes...I did try to hurt someone very badly...but at the time back then in the past, I didn't know any better, and I nearly killed her for it. I have truly regretted it since then and never stopped feeling ashamed and guilty of myself when it happened before."

'Her?'

As if Draco can read his mind, he answered what Bellamy is thinking inside his head. "Helen. I almost killed Helen that time."

When Bellamy's eyes widened in shock at that and he nearly inhaled a breath upon being horrified by Draco's reply, the blond quickly hastened to explain before Bellamy might think the worst about him. "Like I said--it was really a bad mistake for me at the time, and as great and good magic can be--it can also be the worst when it comes to the evilest or very worst of dark spells upon casting them to harm others. At the time before, I didn't know that the spell I cast and attempted on Helen was one of the most grievous Dark spells unimaginable but I managed to pull back on the magic energy from causing life-threatening harm upon her when it struck."