From Thoughts To Words

Okay....

I no longer know what being okay means....
Ask me how I am doing and I will say ' I'm okay ', and you will think I am happy.
I am in and out of emotions you'd think am flipping through channels.
I have to take a moment before I figure out if my okay means I am really okay or I am just not sure about what and how I am feeling.
Just because the happiness came doesn't mean the sadness left.
It's just chilling at its corner....
And who said that being okay means you are happy?
What if my sadness is my okay?
What if those nights that I cry myself to sleep are the nights I feel most okay?
Maybe I have a sad okay and a happy okay!
Okay?