Russian Requiem (Book 2 of RR Trilogy)

Requiem #35

Chapter 35

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"Mama! Mama!" I groaned and forcefully opened my eyes to see who's calling me.

"Yes, baby?" I asked Clay through my hoarse voice when I saw him running towards me.

Mag-aalala na sana ako dahil sa pagmamadali niya patungo sa akin kung hindi ko lang agad nakita ang malaking ngiti niya. He's still in his pajamas and halatang kagigising lamang. Mukhang may good news, ah?

Agad niyang hinawakan ang kamay ko at sinubukang hilahin paalis sa kama.

"Let's go outside and play! Play with me and Carie, mama! Please?" He gave me those adorable eyes twinkling with joy.

Humikab muna ako at nag-stretch ng kaunti bago naupo sa kama. His smile never left his face while staring at me in adoration and waiting for me to respond to his demands. I leaned in and softly kissed his forehead.

"Good morning," I whispered.

He beamed more. "Good morning too, mama!"

I chuckled and caressed his face. "What is it, baby? Why are you so happy and energetic early in the morning, hmm?"

He gave a cute laugh and jumped on the bed to sit beside me. "I cannot tell you, mama, but I want you to play with me and Carie outside. The whole day!"

Natawa na lamang ako at tumango. While staring at his very familiar face, my mind wandered to the man he resembles the most. It has been a few days since I decided to forget about everything and finally forgive him without conditions and hesitations. I know I told myself that I am still not ready to do my part in this reconciliation and to patch things up between us, pero kahit anong gawin ko, sadyang nananaig ang aking puso kaysa utak.

My hearts says that I should forgive him already because that's how much I love him. It is confident that I will forgive him in the end anyway. Maybe, this is not really martyrdom, but just a selfless, unconditional love. It is hard to explain or understand, but I know to myself that I will do anything to save our relationship and family.

Sa wakas, nakapag-usap na kami kahit papaano kinabukasan matapos ang malalim kong pag-iisip na iyon at ang pagdedesisyon kong patawarin na siya. We both cleared our own cheating issues, however, we didn't really talk about that Olivia and Valter in details. Nakuntento na kaming nagkaintindihan kami na walang nangaliwa sa aming dalawa at hindi na kailangan pang pag-usapan ang dalawang taong involve dahil baka maling landas pa ang tahakin ng aming pag-uusap.

Somehow, we got back to our normal lives, just like before. He goes home on time and takes care of the kids while I'm still at work. Every morning nama'y lagi na niya ulit kaming sinasabayan sa almusal. We are back to sleeping in our room together, too.

I know it's too soon and too good to be true lalo pa't minsan kong nakumbinsi ang sarili ko na matagal bago kami magkakaayos. Ngunit hindi ko sasayangin ang pagkakataong ito na masaya kami ulit at maayos sa isa't isa. Wala na akong pakialam sa ibang bagay, basta ba nasisiguro kong hindi na mauulit ang mga hindi magandang nangyari. Sana...