Love Worth Dying For (RusAme)

Regrets

All my school friends were there. Germany, Poland, Romania, South Korea................Japan couldn't make it because of her father. So were my uncles and aunts, and all my brothers. Even mom was there. Despite her always arguing with dad is seems like they are finally starting to get along better. The whole pool was decorated with neon lights and everyone would receive glow sticks once it got dark. A vaporwave styled backdrop was set up next to the pool along with a tiki bar. Aussie was "grilling some steak on the barbie" or whatever he called it. Several pool floats were in the water. The table was stacked high with presents. The party was perfect. But I couldn't help but feel that it was missing something. Or rather..............someone.

Russia. I couldn't stop thinking about him. No matter how much I tried to have fun what he said just kept replaying in my head. I even began taking several puffs of a blunt but even that didn't do anything.

"Laddie what's wrong?" Scotland came over to ask me.

"Nothing.................." I groaned softly.

"Awe come on lad cheer up it's your party!!!!!!!!!" He tried to comfort me but I just sat there silently. "Is it about Japan?"

"I'm gay. I didn't even like her." I replied bluntly. I didn't mean to come off that way but I really wasn't in the mood to talk.

"Uncle Scotland, he's sad cause he got rejected." Canada told him. My brother than sat down next to me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder. "I'm sorry about Russia."

"You don't need to be sorry bro you didn't do anything..........." I tried to reassure him but my voice just sounded weak and I was on the verge of tears. "But.............I don't understand..............where did I go wrong!?!??!?!?!"

"Look............America............" His voice was laced with concern. "I hate to break it to you.............but Russia might just not be a good country."

"B........but why??????" Is it really because I'm gay!?!??!?!" My voice became louder as tears began streaming down my face. "Maybe I should just go back to dating Japan.............."

"No Ame...............then you wouldn't be yourself. There's nothing wrong with being gay but unfortunately some countries just don't see that. And I would've loved to see you and Russia work out but if he's gonna have an attitude like that he's just not right for you. There's other fish in the sea. You'll just have to find someone else."

"But Russia's the best fish of them all!!!!!!!!!" I cried while trying to take another puff of my blunt. But I just ended up coughing out tons of smoke instead.

"Bro.........please.........I think you've had enough of that, your eyes are bloodshot." He took the blunt out of my hand.

"Ugh..............really................."

"Bro your other friends are here............just try to enjoy the party without him."

"Believe me...........I am trying.............." I watched as all my other friends were goofing off and jumping into the pool. But I couldn't help but noticed they had a somber look on their faces. Germany looked almost angry.

"You know what...............it's his dad!!!!!!!!" Russia's dad was the one who made him think this!!!!!!!"

"Ame................I don't think that's-"

"JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!!!" I suddenly lost all control of my emotions. I didn't want to hurt anyone..............but I couldn't bottle in my emotions anymore. I needed to get away from other countries. I ran down into the basement of my house, causing a scene in the process.