Only You {Shawn Mendes}

49.

I sat on the bed staring at the ceiling.

He kissed me.

I couldn't get that thought out of my head. I hurt him but he still loves me I don't understand why. Who could love someone like me? I'm a mistake, a broken teenage girl who turns to drugs when she's having problems. I'm a girl who runs away from her problems, a girl who acts tough but breaks.

Why would he choose me out of all people? I couldn't help but think why. He can have any girl he wants but he chooses me, the girl who broke his heart.

I stayed up all night not getting any sleep. It's just so confusing. He hated me just a few days ago.
Ugh boys.

***
Things were so awkward today at the meet and greet. Bart stood me next to Shawn, occasionally I would catch Shawn staring at me he would look away anytime I looked in his direction. Once both of our lines were empty I decided to ask the question that's been lingering in my mind all day.

"Why did you kiss me last night?" I asked, I don't know why but I did. "Because I still have feelings for you, It hurt seeing you with Zachary it honestly did. You would think someone could get over a person after five months but during that time period I couldn't help but think about you, you were the only thing on my mind. I only asked Emily out because I wanted to make u jealous." He says the last part quietly. "Oh." I say before a few fans walk over to Shawn to take pictures with him. One of the girls glare at me but I don't know why. The girls left and Shawn turned to look at me.

"I'm so sorry Skyler. I messed everything up between us." He says looking in to my eyes. "You didn't mess anything up Shawn it was me. It was my fault." I say looking away from Shawn.

I know this is my fault, he didn't do anything wrong. Yeah he did say a few hurtful things but it was only because he was upset. But they were also the truth.

"I overacted." He said and I shook my head no. "No. No you didn't, you had every right to react the way you did." My voice cracked a little. I looked over and saw Emily out of the corner of my eye. I looked over to see her crying, she wiped away the tears and walked over to the couch that was sitting backstage. I kinda felt bad for her even though we didn't necessarily get along. She actually had feelings for Shawn, she actually cared about him and the relationship but for Shawn it was the opposite. He didn't actually have feelings for Emily, he didn't actually care about her or the relationship.

"Can we just start over and forget the past?" Shawn asks before two girls come over to us and take pictures. Once they leave Shawn and I continue our conversation. "Can we?" He asks and I shrug my shoulders. "Please Skyler I want to be with you. I want to forget what happened between us and try to be together." Shawns says and I honestly don't know what to say. I want to be with him, I do, but something inside me says stay away from him.

"Okay." I say and he pulls me into a hug. "I really did miss you Sky." He says and I smile, he hasn't called me Sky in so long.

***
Shawn and I are going out tonight but he won't tell me where. He told me to dress casual but I don't know what he means by casual. There's park casual, party casual and a night in casual.

After a hour of searching for something to wear I finally decided on my outfit. I took a quick shower before I straightened my hair and did my makeup before getting changed into my outfit. (Outfit posted in the beginning of the chapter.)

Shortly after I got ready there was a knock on the door. I opened the door and saw Shawn standing there with a huge smile on his face. "Hey beautiful." He says and I start to blush. "Stop." I said while giggling.

Uh I never giggle why am I giggling now?

He smiles and grabs my hand before pulling me out the room. "Are you going to tell me where we are going?" I asked as we walked down the hall. "Nope." He smiles before pressing the down button on the elevator. We walked to the front of the hotel where a few fans were. Shawn took a few pictures before guiding me to the uber. He whispers something to the driver and he nods before starting the car.