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wrote this rn on my phone in class
expect typos, i type better on a keyboard—
i feel like im drowning
my life is going in a spiral down
my grades are dropping
im working so hard to bring them back up
my teachers hate me, and i hate them
my mom yells and screams
im a failure
im ugly
im annoying
im texting friends 30 tiktoks in 10 minutes
they dont even bother replyijt anymorei feel like a burden
and i cant do anything but stay sad
i like makung myseld feel lost
i have an addiction to my razors
i cut every day
it feels so good to feel so bad
to cry for hours
to sit and listen to fucking saline solution
and scream into my pillow
pull at my hair
and go insane
i cant trust anyone
god he makes me want to kill myself too
i want him to tell me stuff
why does he have to keep shit away from me?
does he not love me?
am i not a good boyfriend for him?
was i wasting 2 years of his life?
ha! almost 3 years now!
i dont eveb have the motivstion to talk to him
im doing this to myself
becayse i crave the insanity
bexause i crave the torment
the torture
i have my happy moments
they dont last long
why dont they last long?
its not fair
i havent cried in so long
why is it out of nowhere
i want to be numb again
i dont want to be loke this
i want to be drowning again
not aware of shit
floating in the bottom of the sea
i want to drown again
drown in my problems
drown OUT my problems
i dont want to be alert again let me feel nothing i dont want to feel i dont want to be humaj im not a good human
drown
let me drown dammit
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❥ tordtom oneshots《
Fanfictionjust a bunch of oneshots i made for fun of my all time favorite op, tomtord/tordtom. consists of fluff, angst, and smut. requests are open! enjoy! cover image drawn by me !! time spent; 1 hour, 2 minutes, 53 seconds ! milestones!! #1 in mattew; june...