❥ tordtom oneshots《

the cut that always bleeds

stupid vent i made because i feel like an absolute piece of worthless shit who just has no will to leave besides my loving girlfriend and im afraid to lose her.

ill be dead if anything happens. and no, she isnt like him. i love her, and she is so nice.

im making this not because of our love, just my stupid nightmares.

insomnia is great when you actually fall sleep.

and him could be whoever you imagine. not tord, but just an ex tom has. also, some of you know about my oc richard, ill be talking about him more in a upcoming chapter i swear, but if anyone is wondering later when that chapter is up, no, richard is not him.

him is a monsterous being who should have never walked into my life, him doesnt deserve a name, he doesnt deserve that right.

he is a sack of shit who acts like a fucking adult when we are all still minors. he is one of the reasons why i no longer find men as attractive as women. if my girlfriend is reading this, or anyone i know in real life, dont worry, i have never talked about him, but i can assure everyone that he never threw bottles at me since we're still teens. he is out of my life, and thank jehovah he is, wish he never was in my life. yet, we cant always control that shit.

anyways, trigger warning, self harm and shit. also kinda abusive love i guess. and also lowkey lime that tom doesnt enjoy one bit. no, i dont ship him and tom, id prefer him to never be in this, but i just need to let out these horrible nightmares.

no word count, genre is angst / vent.

the song i based this off is the cut that always bleeds by conan gray.

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-tom's pov i guess-

"I don't love you anymore," my boyfriend screamed, throwing a bottle at the wall beside me.

A pretty line that I adore. 5 words that I've heard before.

tears dripped from my black voids, soaking into the neck of my shirt. I reached my hand out, said limb being slapped away from him. I gasped in pain, grunting when I was pushed up against the wall.

his hands wrapped around my neck, strangling me as i squirmed.

"P-please, no, let me go—!"

cause you keep me on a rope and tied a noose around my throat.

he snarled, picking me up by the neck and throwing my useless body to the floor. i hissed in pain, curling up as he kicked my stomach. i howled, sobbing louder.

he scoffed, walking away and grabbing his keys.

then, he close the door.

you're gone, then back at my door.

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he came back, drunk and angry. and i thought i was a bad alcoholic...

this man, my horrible boyfriend started to lecture me for being a cry baby, me earning a sharp slap across the face for talking back.