MIKA's POV
Pagkatapos kantahin ang track 3 sa setlist, naupo ako sa upuang naroon sa stage. Umupo ako sa harap na para bang casual lang akong makikipagkwentuhan with friends sa isang living room...
I wanted this concert to be as 'intimate' as possible so there were no scripts memorized. The idea is, uupo ako sa upuan, pagkatapos, I would start sharing whatever it is I feel like sharing at the time of sitting in front of my 'loved ones'.
Pagkaupo ko, pagtingin ko sa mga kaharap, the words that came out were...
"I... am not good with goodbyes."
At the time of uttering the word 'goodbyes', everything I had to say goodbye to--things, places, moments, feelings, people... naalala ko sila isa-isa. My thoughts then settled and lingered to that one particular goodbye, four years ago...
four years ago... ilang oras bago magbago ang taon...
"When love left four years ago, the goodbye was so unbearable, I... started getting scared of saying 'hi' to love again."
"Spring, is the season people mostly associate with love... but to me, it's definitely summer."
"Summer is the warmest, brightest season, the one with the most captured memories... and to me, love is the season in my life that looked and felt exactly like that..."
"Having associated 'summer' with 'love', alam niyo ba, na for years, I stopped welcoming summer?"
"Aalis lang din naman 'yon at matatapos, so bakit ko i-wewelcome? Ayoko nang mag 'hi' para lang magsabi sa huli ng goodbye..."
"Ayoko nang magpaalam..."
"Ayoko na..."
Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang kumawala sa mga mata ko. Concert ito, and I don't want to be a downer, pero, I really want to be true sa mga kaharap ko ngayon... kaya imbis na mag-sorry, nagtuloy lang ako sa pagkikwento.
"Fast forward, come June of last year... may napanood akong isang movie... may isang babaeng namatayan ng mahal..."
"Several months after her lover's death... may scene do'n na, sa wakas, nagpakita na rin for the first time sa panaginip niya yung lalaking mahal niya."
"Where have you been! sigaw niya rito."
"Listen, the love we had was wonderful, but that is small peanuts to what's ahead for you."
"and when that love comes, I'll be part of it."
"Yan 'yung sagot ng lalaki."
Hinayaan kong maghari ang katahimikan nang ilang saglit bago ako nagpatuloy muli.
