Jacob's POV
I took off my necklace and threw it across my room. I brought my knees up to my chest and put my face in my hands. I kept crying.
"J? It's Lake. Open the door."
"N-no!"
"Oh come on! You can't lock yourself in there for the rest of your life!"
"Yes I can!"
I heard my phone going off. I picked it up. She started calling me and texting me. I turned my phone off. I threw it across the room. I cried all night. I didn't eat for a week.
"LAKELYN LET ME IN!"
"FUCK YOU!"
I picked up my necklace. I opened my window and threw it out. I looked at Veronica. She looked broken. I shut my window and closed the blinds. I covered myself with my blanket and curled up into a ball. I kept crying. Someone knocked on my door.
"Jakey? Do you even want to see her?"
"H-how can I look at her, knowing what she did?"
"Okay you have a point. But...do you still want to see her?"
"I miss her so goddamn much! I-I wanna die!"
"WHAT?!"
I ran out of my room. I went to my dad's gun safe.
"Jake what are you doing?!"
I broke the safe and pulled out his gun. I put it up against my head.
"Jake please! I-I can't lose you! I-I already lost Jensen! Please! You're my best friend!"
"I-I'm sorry. I love you."
"JACOB STOP! PUT IT DOWN!"
I started shaking.
"Jakey please!"
"I-I lost her! I gave her EVERYTHING!"
"I know. I know. Please put down the gun! Do you want me to get her?!"
"I honestly don't know. She went off and cheated. I-I understand, she didn't understand but..."
"I know. It's torturing you. Please! I-I can't lose you!"
"Dad fucked me and her up!" I said as my voice cracked.
"I know. We all do. He feels horrible."
"H-how do you know?!"
"He keeps crying! He never cries!"
"H-he told me to leave her!"
"He just wanted to make sure, you're happy."
"That's not what he fucking did though!"
"Put it down!"
I dropped the gun. I fell to my knees. Lakelyn ran up to me. She threw the gun behind her. She started hugging me.
"I'm so, so sorry. I'm so fucking sorry. I-I just want my baby back! I-I can't live without her!"
She started rubbing my back.
"I know. It's okay. I'm going to hide this gun. I will be right back. Do not fucking move."
She picked the gun up and ran away. I sat down and backed myself up into a corner. I brought my knees up to my knees. I put my face in my hands. The voices started talking.
You should've pulled the trigger!
She'll never come back!
You're not good enough!
Don't say that!
You're good enough!
She just misunderstood everything!
She didn't mean to do it!
Yes she did!
Dad essentially told her, you're not with her anymore!
You shouldn't take her back.
NO!
You should take her back!
No!
Don't fucking take her back!
Do it!
Don't!
DO IT!
DON'T
"Please shut up head. Please shut up head."
JUST KILL YOURSELF AND GET IT OVER WITH!
NO!
YOU HEARD LAKELYN!
SHE CAN'T LOSE HER BEST FRIEND.
YOU'RE A BURDEN!
NO!
YOU ARE NOT!
I started rocking myself.
"Please shut up! Please stop! Leave me alone!"
I heard the front door open and close.
"JACOB?!"
I heard someone running towards me. I picked my head up. I saw Veronica. I shook my head and put my head down.
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Fix My Heart
RomanceAll Veronica has known all her life are the walls of her house. Her parents have never let her outside. Her parents are abusive as well. One day she decided it was time for her to get away from them. One night she snuck out of the house and started...
