Jacob's POV
I felt someone running their fingers through my hair.
JUMP IN FRONT OF A CAR!
DON'T!
PICK YOUR GODDAMN HEAD UP!
I kept crying.
"Shhh. It's okay."
"I want her back!"
I felt someone cup my face. My head was lifted up. Someone pressed their forehead against mine.
"I wanna die!"
"No you don't. No you don't."
"Yes I do! I want Ronnie!"
"I'm right here."
"No you're not. I'm hearing shit. I-I'm losing my mind. I-it's bad enough...the voices in my head won't shut up."
"There's voices in your head?"
"Mhm. O-one is telling me to die. The other one is telling me to live. One is telling me to let Ronnie go. The other one is telling me to take her back."
"Well...what do you want?"
"I want her back! I miss her so much! But...she broke my heart!"
"I know. I know I did. I'm so sorry."
"She fucking ripped my heart outta my chest and stepped on it!"
"Shhh. I love you."
"I might as well be dead! Part of me died when I saw that guy all over her! She fuckin knows, how another guy's arms feel around her! I can't t-take that away! He probably felt nicer than me!"
"No. He didn't."
"I miss her so much! I-I can't take this! She's probably pregnant with this dude's baby! I want to her to be pregnant with my baby!"
"I-I'm not pregnant."
"Get outta my head! GET OUTTA MY HEAD! You're not real! YOU'RE NOT REAL!" I yelled as my voice cracked.
"I'm real. I'm right here. I am right here!"
"You're lying! You're not her! You're not her!"
"Jacob Winters look at me!"
"You're not real! Leave me alone! Get away from me!"
I pushed whoever was in front of me. I stood up and ran to my room. I threw myself onto my bed. I hid underneath my blanket. I curled up into a tight ball. I started hugging the pillow she'd use.
It still smells like her.
That works.
Veronica's POV
I ran into his room. I got under the blanket. I grabbed one of his hands. I wrapped my arms around his neck.
"Get away! Get away!"
I wrapped my arms around him tighter.
"You're not her! Let go! Let me go!"
"Just wrap your arms around me!"
"You're not real!"
I'm over this.
I slapped him. He opened his eyes.
"Ronnie?"
"Oh me slapping you, wakes your ass up?"
He sat up.
"W-why are you being so...so cruel?"
"I've been laying here with you for almost three hours! You haven't even noticed me!"
I stood up.
"P-please d-don't leave me."
"I cannot believe you! I thought you'd know better! I thought you'd know I was here!"
I saw tears falling down his face. I took my necklace off and threw it at him.
"There! Now you know how that feels!"
"Baby w-"
"DON'T "BABY" ME!"
"Ronnie please don't go! I-I've been dying to get you back!"
"Well guess what?! You failed! You chased me away!"
"I-I didn't mean to! I-I've been stuck in my own head for months!"
"And you didn't think to call me?!"
"I-I was scared! Y-you did the same thing t-to me!"
"Okay and?! What's your point?!"
He walked over to me.
"I-I tried to get you back. I ran out in the snow barefoot for you." He said as his voice cracked.
"And I've been here for 4 hours trying to calm to you down. I left school for you!"
"T-then w-why are you leaving?"
"You fuckin being like this, isn't good for my health!"
He started shaking.
"S-so what are you saying?"
"Go to fucking hell!"
"I-I've been there w-when you needed me..w-why can't you be there for me w-when I need you? Songbird please talk to me!"
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Fix My Heart
RomanceAll Veronica has known all her life are the walls of her house. Her parents have never let her outside. Her parents are abusive as well. One day she decided it was time for her to get away from them. One night she snuck out of the house and started...
