Spidey Time || WooSan Spider-Man AU

(:Pipes:)

As I walk into my apartment, everything tries to get my attention.

My Auntie yells at me to sweep the house.

My phone tells me that there are about 3 missing teens in my area.

My body tells me to go drink some water to calm down.

A lot was going on.

I told Auntie I was going to do it in the morning and then go wash up before laying on my bed.

I sigh and grab onto my new Cat Plushie to cuddle it.

My mind wanders to everything that happened.

Oh, I'm not talking about the whole thing at the bank.

I'm talking about Choi San.

He's stupid nose scrunch.

His stupid giggle and that "pfft-" he does before he laughs.

How he can go from asshole to cutest man on planet earth.

His stupid jawline and perfect collar bone.

His stupid face with those freckles on his neck tastes delicious.

I don't know if I want to be or be with him.

I knew this feeling. This is exactly how I felt when I first fell for Seonghwa... but.. this is different.

Seonghwa was a schoolboy crush on a cool older dude.

It has already been a few days and San changed completely. It made me wonder what he meant when he told me he hated me because he couldn't have me.

Could that mean he also...

No.

No one actually likes me.

They always just either tell me I am cute but then chase some 6'3 guy whose birthday is December 5th. Like I'm a Sagittarius too.... just not tall.

That or they just use me to get better grades...

I shouldn't do this to myself.

Everyone just ends up being "friends" with me.

Choi San is no different.

I already know it, he will just end up saying that he was just using me to get better grades... or that he was just being friendly...

Or... what if this is just another form of bullying?

Pretending to like me but then when I need him the most, he'll turn on me and torment me for the rest of my life.

My thoughts went from bad to worse. Never stopping like a train going 300 miles per hour on a train track.

I felt tears going down my cheek uncontrollably.

I gripped onto my unnamed cat plushie as I slightly sob into the night.

Why does my heart ache for someone who will just throw me away at the end?

I am crying.

Not because of my sad thoughts.

No.

But because deep down, I know I've fallen for a Mountain God...but I was just a mere speck in the forest.

But because I know I can't stop my stupid heart from hurting itself with the posion my mind is feeding it.

Choi San.

Please don't hurt me, again.

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"Jung Wooyoung! Wake up! Your friend is here!"