TW: that no bad bad shit bro....(suicidal thoughts)
I never actually went to bed.
I just didn't want to talk like everything was perfect anymore.
The guilt was eating me up like there was no tomorrow.
I knew the people were saved but that won't stop other people from getting hurt.
I want to save everyone but not everyone desired to be saved.
It was just the crippling guilt of not being able to save everyone. It was all the lying.
The lying.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies.
Lies
Nothing but lies.
The lies ate my mind and polluted my thoughts.
What made everything 10x worse was the fact my truthful thoughts sounded like my mothers dying screams....yeah...fun...
You are nothing but a liar, Wooyoung.
That is all you'll ever be.
You killed your parents and went you have the audacity to live on?
Why aren't you dead yet?
Go fucking jump off a building and land your neck.
You're a liar and nothing!
YOU LIE TO YOUR FRIENDS SAYING YOU'RE FINE WHEN YOU JUST WISH SOMEONE WOULD RUN YOU OVER!
YOU LIE WHEN YOU SAY EVERYTHING IS ALRIGHT WHEN YOU JUST CAME BACK FROM TRYING TO CRY IN THE BATHROOM BUT YOU CAN NOT!
YOU CAN'T CRY BECAUSE YOU DON'T DESERVE TO CRY!
YOUR LIFE IS FUCKING PERFECT, WHY ARE YOU TRYING TO CRY?
OH, NOW SOMEONE HAS FEELINGS?
YOU DON'T GET TO HAVE THOSE!
EVERYTHING IS YOUR FAULT!
YOUR FAULT!
YOUR PARENTS ARE DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU!
YOU RUIN EVERYTHING AROUND YOU!
YOUR FRIENDS DONT LIKE YOU, THEY JUST USE YOU AS A MERE THERAPIST, AND THAT'S IT! YOU NEVER HEAR FROM THEM AGAIN!
YOU NEVER OPEN UP TO ANYONE BECAUSE YOU'RE A COWARD!
AFRAID IF YOU TELL THEM ANYTHING, THEY WILL RUN AWAY!
EVEN YOU'RE BEST FRIEND DOESN'T TRULY KNOW YOU, THEY JUST KNOW THE MASK YOU'VE PUT ON!
COWARD!
COWARD!
COWARD!
YOU SIT IN YOUR SHOWER AND TRY TO MAKE YOURSELF JUST TO FEEL SOMETHING!
YOU WANNA FEEL SOMETHING? GO CUT YOUR WRIST AND FEEL THE BLOOD DRAIN FROM YOUR USELESS BODY!
OH? NOW YOU CAN'T MOVE!?
YOU'RE USELESS! UGLY! NO GOOD FUCK WHO LEECHES OFF YOUR AUNT!
JUST DIE ALREADY!
NO ONE WILL MISS YOU!
Choi San would.
ARE YOU TRYING TO FIGHT BACK WITH LIES? MORE LIES?
EVERYTHING YOU HEAR AND SAY ARE LIES!
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Spidey Time || WooSan Spider-Man AU
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