Make it Right

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"Are you ready?" Brian asked the Morena who's tuning her guitar. Risa looked at the crowd that have now gathered in Leviosa café. This would be her last performance and would be her good bye.

"Yes, I think I am" Risa said with a smile. She looked at the café that's getting filled by the crowd. A bittersweet smile plastered on her face. 

"Let's hit the stage, then?" Brian said, tapping his best friend's shoulder.

Grabbing her guitar, she walked up on stage and settled herself in the middle. Looking at the crowd in front of her who's patiently waiting for her, she can't help but smile once again. 

"First, I want to thank everyone who came here to support my performance. Actually, I have something to announce to you tonight" Risa said, looking everywhere the room, making sure to memorize all the faces of her fans before she go until she once met again with blue eyes looking at her. Maeve is not ready for what was coming nor she's ready to hear whatever Risa have to say. She continuously shakes her head pleading her best friend silently not to go.

"I've thought about this a lot of times. I weighed all the pros and cons and finally made a decision"

Everyone was looking at Risa, patiently waiting for the news she wants to share. The latter take a deep breath before she continues what she's about to say.

"For all the months we've been together,  I was happy. The first time Brian told me to perform on stage, I was hesitant but still I did it and this is where it got me"

This time,  Risa has now became emotional. She wanted to cry but she's always been crying and she's tired of it. 

"I've met you guys and that was one of the best moments of my life. And I think it would be unfair to all of you people who have been there supporting me since my first day If I leave without saying a proper goodbye"

Risa saw how her fans faces turn confused and sad. She was almost close to saying it was all a prank, but she knew it's for the best.

"I'm leaving this place. I'm sorry that I'll have to leave you all but I'm sure Celina would be there consoling all of you" Risa laughed, easing the atmosphere a bit. 

"Before I leave, I want to give you one last song. This song is quite sad, but it's what I've been feeling for the several months and I think its time to let all of these lingering feelings go" she continues and started to strum her guitar. 

~On a ripped pieces of paper I threw the last of my tears away and now it's all clear something 'bout you~

Maeve knew very well that the song is still about her and she knew that the song is not about how Risa loves her but how her best friend is letting her go and for her, listening to such song is the hardest part of her night. 

~You and I were one of a kind, but now I know it was all in my mind how could you tore my heart in two~

Maeve couldn't help but to continuously shakes her head in disapproval. She didn't mean to hurt her best friend, but she still did and she would do everything just to go back in time and change everything. 

~Days turned to months and the months turned to years, I wonder how different our lives will be~

No, Maeve couldn't think of a year without Risa by her side. She's not just her best friend anymore, Risa's more than that. If only Maeve have found it deep within her a little sooner. Avery was right, she regrets it.

~Will you be fine, even though I know you won't be mine. Still, you fill up my days I could never erase your face. Will you be fine? Will I be pretending it's alright? Like a fool I believe you and I could stay the same. It's not fine~

For all the days, months that Risa prayed for them to stay the same, but it never did. Because change is constant and the change that Risa saw in her crush had hurt her the most. Of course Maeve knew that it's not fine. What she did to the person she loves the most was and is never fine. But what happened already happened. She could no longer go back in time and change everything. How she wish for Risa to just give her one last chance and she'll do everything to make her stay.

~Days turned to months and the months turned to years, the scars that you left will heal, you'll see~

Maeve would like it if Risa's scars heal, but she most prefer to heal Risa's scars herself. She may have been the one who put it in there, but she also desperately want to be the one to heal it and cover it will all her warmth and love, she desperately pray to the Gods above that she's not too late this time. Or maybe she already is late 

~They come rushing back, painful memories we had so I'm faking a smile. Could I ever be the same again. I gather my pride, set all these feelings aside. I'm not scared anymore, I'm letting you go~

Everything flashes back like a broken record, the friendship anniversary where Risa heard her best friend called her a disgusting gay, the police station wherein Maeve had trusted her boyfriend more than her best friend who just got harassed and the promise that Maeve have broken. Everything flashes back like a broken record and she can't help but gave a bitter smile, letting a lone tear escape.

Every audience that was on the café are now either crying or making a sad face. None of  them knew what happened, but they can relate and feel the heartache just by listening to Risa's voice. All the emotions are put into one song and everyone's having a whirlwind of emotion about it. 

~Our last goodbye, looking back to us just one last time, but wherever you are I hope you're doing fine~

And Maeve knew deep inside that she will never be fine. Not when Risa is not by her side 

~I know I will be fine, won't be pretending it's alright. Not a fool to believe you and I could stay the same. It's not fine~

Acceptance. That's what Risa feel. She finally accept that the friendship between her and Maeve would never go back to how it is back then. That somewhere deep within them, something has been broken and they have to move on, continue their life as they say good bye. However, acceptance is far from what Maeve feels. She can't accept that everything will be over, that it's over. She blames herself for being confused and denying what has been craved deep inside her heart for far too long and now all that's left are bitterness, regrets, and desperately hoping for a second chance.