ɢᴜɪʟᴛʏ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴜʀᴇ ⎮ ᴅ.ᴍ.

⌈CHAPTER 64 ⎮⎮ FILTHY⌋

*WARNING: SEXUAL ASSAULT/HARASSMENT*

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A/N: To be more descriptive, it's an attempt of these two actions. Remember you have the right to your own body. Please reach out if you are in the need of help, (800)656-4673 National Hotline for SA.

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Draco Malfoy (POV)

It was Friday and I looked forward to these days since Esme wouldn't be as busy and I can spend time with her. However, it was me who actually became the busy one. I had put a lot of papers behind which needed to get done so I can of course graduate.

After dinner, Esme offered to help out with whatever she can. I hadn't seen her up until now though. She had dinner later than me, I was leaving when she got there.

Now I was in the library just waiting for her to finish, I managed to do half of only one of the papers I needed to. 

I felt really stressed out but I pushed myself to keep it contempt, which I shouldn't because I can just feel myself wanting to lash out. Instead, I continue to pile it on and I don't feel like bugging Esme about it. I rubbed my forehead when I felt a pair of arms hug me from behind, "Are you okay?"

I knew this was Esme's touch, "Fine darling." I rubbed her hand to convince her I was. She took the seat next to me, taking my hand in hers, "I'm here for you Draco."

It's not that I always forgot, I just don't want to be a burden to anyone's life.

Esme looked through my papers seeing what she could help on. My assignments weren't super big, but they were all about three to four page length, "I could help get you a few sources or examples that you'll need."

"That's great, thank you." I started staring at her especially her eyes, then her cheeks had a faint blush.

I had a few books around me so she grabbed one and began looking through it. We worked in a peaceful silence with some chattering here and there. I've always worked alone since that's how I would always get things done, it's the only way. Sometimes I'd work with Blaise because I knew he is focused on his work, which is why I liked Esme.

She worked really hard and focused on the task, I knew with her I wouldn't be distracted. She only wants to help me.

I paused in my writing and looked at her reading, "Hey Esme."

She looked at me, her eyes had a tint of concern in them.

"I've been really stressed out..." I just started talking and she turned her body towards me giving me all her attention, "I'm just so aggravated with well the whole... death eater... thing and trying to keep myself away from everyone."

"You don't have to distance yourself from anyone in the first place, especially your friends." 

I slowly started to rub her hand, putting in on my lap. "I know that if anything happens to anyone close to me it'll be my fault and I cannot live like that."

Yet here I was, living exactly like that. I rather live my entire life alone knowing if it'll protect those I care about.

"It's not your fault Draco," She then asked, "Why do put the blame on yourself even before something happens?"

"I'm not a good person," I answered right away. I know I've done bad, repeatedly. Whether I've wanted to or not, that doesn't matter because I still chose evil, I've been raised in evil.