Unexpected Love

19. The Adventure Begins

We laughed and went back to the hotel. We kept a short distance between us, acting casually and checking our phones. When we stepped out of the elevator Yoongi turned around both sides of the hallway to check if it was empty and turned back to me.

—"So, your place, or mine? Aigoo! I've always wanted to say that!"

It feels great to see Yoongi that happy, showing his gummy smile.

— "Your place, just for a while, ok?"

— "What do you mean 'for a while'? Are you going somewhere?" — He lifted his eyebrow as he asked me.

— "Yes, to my room, to rest. If I stay with you, we both know we won't sleep that much. Yoongi-ssi, we need to sleep."

— "Ok... fineee..." — He rolled his eyes in a pouting way.

We had one more drink and talked about the day and the staff's reaction to my announcement. He started to explain to me how things go during a tour, and what to expect. He asked me about my meeting with H, and I just told him that everything went just fine.

I told him that I needed to do some shopping the next day because I had clothes and personal necessities for a week and that one of the guys was going to take me. We talked about some other trivial things, and I checked the time and it was almost midnight. Yoongi caught me looking at my watch and tried to 'distract me' by grabbing my wrists and pulling me to him.

— "Now come here and kiss me before you try to leave. Hey, didn't H give you a phone?"

— "Yes, why you ask?"

— "Well, you still have your watch that goes with your other phone, remember: 'No iPhone, only Samsung?'"

— "Oh honey, I will carry the Samsung with me for the tour's needs, but Sweetie, I'm 100% Apple all the way and there's nothing you can do about that." — I giggled and he just shook his head mocking me.

— "My stubborn little Nabi, yaaahh, fineee. Now please kiss me with those Apple lips." — I gave him a soft kiss, and started to stand up.

— "Aish! Where do you think you're going so soon? I need a quick therapy session." — He winked mischievously, but I stood up anyway.

— "I'm going to my suite because you. need. to. sleep, and so do I."

— "Ooook..." — He frowned and crossed his arms at his chest and followed me to the door.

— "Good night Yoong-ssi, rest well. Do you want me to come over for breakfast?"

— "Yes, please, and for a quick bite". — Again, his mischievous smile.

— "Ah Sweetie, you need to behave now." — I smiled with a teasing look back.

— "Aniyo! I'm a bad boy."

We both laughed so loud as I walked back to my suite.

Lying on my bed, I started thinking about the past couple of years. How much I lost and how much it hurt; there was a moment when I felt broken to pieces and found solace in Suga's music. I found the strength to build myself back together with his lyrics, rhythm, and coarse singing. I mended my heart dreaming about him, but now I was worried that I could break down harder once this was over.

There also was a strange feeling of guilt, betrayal... I still loved my Bae deeply but somehow I wanted to stay with my fantasy that came true.

Oh, Bae! I'm sorry! Please, show me a sign, anything, that it is ok for me to move on.

After crying for a while, I fell asleep... and had a beautiful dream.