Fields of Lavenders

30

I immediately dropped the call and head to the hospital they're admitted in, if it weren't for Ysa I would have gotten into a car accident sa bilis ng pagmamaneho ko.

"Where are they?" I asked once I saw Leone.

"Gabriel's in the operating room, tita on the other hand is already admitted onto a private room. She's still asleep." He detailed.

"Didn't I specifically told you to send many bodyguards to them so that this wouldn't happen?" I asked.

"Gabriel insisted on taking tita home, after what happened hindi sya umuwi ng bahay but rather went to the firm and told tita to go to a place somewhere safe cause he knows what's up. He told me that someone's following him and he's afraid that it might do something bad to tita." He explained. "But as they're on their way to tita's place, may sumusunod sa kanila. He tried to lead them astray but it's too late. Even my butler is injured."

I sighed heavily. "Pay all of their bills, kunin mo yung pera sa account ko, mag bigay ka din ng pera sa butler mo. Dagdagan mo if may pamilya sya." I ordered.

"Where's tita?" I asked, and with that he took the both of us to a room where tita's currently sleeping.

I rush up to her. "Tita..." I called like a child. The one I used to call her before, the one she always likes.

"Tita, nandito na'ko oh." I said, trying to hold back my tears. "Gising ka na." I pleaded. "I'm sorry tita, nadamay ka pa. I'm sorry tita. Pero please tita, gumising ka. I need you tita. Wag mo'kong iwan." I begged. I cried harder and harder, Leone left the room to give us a bit of privacy meanwhile Ysa kept on comforting me.

Suddenly a familiar woman walks through the door, even with the cap she's wearing I can still recognize her sa damit nya.

"Where is he?" Jia asked, pertaining to Gab.

"Operating room." I simply said, agad rin syang umalis para puntahan si Gab na nasa operating room ngayon. Kalaunan ay sumunod rin kami sa kanya para makibalita sa kalagayan nya.

"Ara..." Tumakbo si Jia patungo saakin, agad na niyakap nya'ko habang umiiyak.

"Anong kalagayan ni Gab?" I asked.

"The doctors said that he's in a critical state, maraming bala ang nasa katawan nya, he's also running out of blood kaya we're trying to find someone that can donate. His blood type is AB." she explained.

"I can donate, my blood's AB." I said, and with that I went to the blood donation centre and Immediately donated my blood to Gabriel after that hinanap ko agad si Jia na nasa labas ng operating room. I sat beside her and Immediately comforted her.

"Gagaling sya Jia I promise." I assured her as she lays her head onto my shoulder sa sobrang pagod, mukhang nag madali ito umuwi nang malaman nya ang nangyari kay Gab.

The following days para akong walking ghost, halos dito na'ko sa hospital tumira, kasa-kasama ko si Jia dahil binabantayan din nya ang kalagayan ni Gab. Si Ysa naman ang pabalik-balik mula sa villa hanggang dito para magdala ng mga gamit na kinakailangan ko.

"Jia." I called.

"Hm?" She hummed in response.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. "I'm sorry I dragged Gabriel into this. I shouldn't have allowed him to come to me to help find miss, I should have told him to stay away-"

"Oh please. Don't blame yourself Sayonara." She cut me off.

"How can I not blame myself, kasalanan ko naman kung bakit nagkakanda letse-letse buhay namin pare-pareho ngayon. Nadamay ko pa si tita, pati si Gabriel. Lahat kayo madadamay Jia." Tears started to stream down my face. Jia Immediately hugged me habang hinihimas nya ang aking likuran.

"After this lalayo na'ko Jia, I'll distance myself muna. Para matapos tong gulong 'to." I cried. "Para wala nang madamay pa."

"Paano si Ms?" She asked.

I smiled. "I'd rather distance myself if that's what will keep her safe, I'd rather admire her from afar then admire her in her coffin."

"She'll be hurt too Sayonara, alam kong masakit sa'yo pero mas masakit sa kanya. Aanuhin nyang mabuhay kung para naman syang patay sa loob?" She questioned.

I didn't bother saying anything anymore, kase kahit anong sabihin at gawing pigil saakin ni Jia buo na ang desisyon ko. I have to do this, inorder to protect all of them, to protect her. I'd rather watch her from afar kaysa sa pagmasdan ko sya sa kabaong nya, kase pag nawala sya saakin baka sumunod nalang din ako sa kanya.

I can do this, nakayanan ko nga for the past eight years, kakayanin...

Alam kong masakit pero ito ang natatanging paraan na alam ko, paraan upang maproteksyonan sya at ang mga mahal ko sa buhay. I need to distance myself from her inorder to keep her safe, to protect her, to see her live. And for her I can ruin myself, kahit ilang beses ko pang gawin 'yon.

It's okay as long as I get to see her, even from afar. Kase yon naman na ang aking nakasanayan diba? Ang magmahal mula sa malayo, kase hindi pwede, kase malabo.

Ever since highschool I've been admiring her, sya lang ang crush ko na hindi ko makalimutan. To the point na kahit nasa kabilang building pa'ko I'd make ways para lang makita sya or makausap sya. Kahit ako na ang maging errand runner ng mga teachers sa kabilang building para lang makita sya.

Mula noon hanggang ngayon, hindi parin pwede, hindi parin maari. I've been fighting for many years, lahat sinugal ko. Not just myself but also my feelings, kaso for destiny hindi pa sapat iyon. Nasanay ako noong bata ako na lahat ng gusto ko binibigay saakin, na lahat ng gusto ko nakukuha ko. Kung hindi ibibigay saakin, I'd work hard to get it. Kaso that logic doesn't apply to all stuff.

Minsan we have to accept that there are things that aren't meant for us no matter how bad we want them. No matter how bad we need them.

At kasama sya sa mga bagay na kahit anong gawin ko hinding-hindi mapapasaakin.

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