Fields of Lavenders

32

Eight years ago.

Ngayon ay kinakailangan kong pumasok kahit tinatamad ako dahil may event ang aking kaibigan at syempre kahit walang hiya tayo susuportahan parin natin sya. Pwede naman talaga akong huwag nang pumasok kada biyernes, kaso dahil kinulit ako ng aking napakagaling na kaibigan na si Jia ay kailangan kong pumasok dahil kung hindi ay baka makalbo ako ng wala sa panahon.

I showered and got dressed into my school uniform, then I proceed to braid my hair dahil kasama ito sa requirements namin. Nang matapos ay kinuha ko lang ang aking bag at nag commute na papuntang school. Once I got to our classroom as expected konti lang ang mga estudyanteng nandoon kase ang iba ay tinamad narin like me.

"Oh, 'te himala pumasok ka ha." Asar saakin ni tricia.

"Kailangan, baka pag pasok ko dito sa lunes wala na'kong buhok." I joked.

Jia's currently at the canteen kung saan nandun ang ibang mga marian candidate kasama ang adviser namin, tanging sila zheena lang ang incharge sa room. Kalaunan ay bumaba nadin kami sa simbahan dahil magsisimula na ang event, nandun na ang mga marian candidates including Jia na nasa gitnang-gitna pa.

As were waiting I can't help but notice our cled teacher, Miss Ysabelle earlier, she's in a french braid low pigtails with a grey uniform just like the other teachers here. She kept on walking around the church as she's probably one of the facilitators for this event. Sa kanya lang ako nakatingin habang naghihintay magsimula yung event, I don't know but for some reason I find her cute. Lalo na't yung ayos ng buhok nya, including her height.

She looks like a missing child to me.

Before the event started she took a one last look at her surroundings before going down the altar using the stairs, that's when my heart skipped a beat.

Ang cute nya lord.

May crush na ata ako mamsh.

When I went there, it was to support Jia. But when I came home I found someone whom I'll cherish and support forever.

...

After that talk with Miss sa library things have started to develop even more for the both of us, parang kailan lang nung nakita ko sya sa simbahan. Now nakakausap ko na sya, we even became close to the point that students would go up to me whenever they have a question kay Miss.

Ako na ang ginawa nilang messenger kumbaga.

"Miss," I called as I snuggle myself into her arms. She hums in response, hindi na sya nagrereklamo dahil sanay na sya sa pagiging clingy ko sa kanya.

"I miss you." I whispered, making her chuckle.

"I miss you more, wala ka bang gagawin?" She asked.

"Already done." I smiled.

"Very good." She commented, enough to make me blush. "Come on, rest. You deserve it."

This has been our normal routine na, we'd spend the afternoon here sa library kase wala namang tao na bumibisita rito. Usually sabay kaming gumagawa rito pero pag tapos na'ko sa gawain ko ay hinahayaan nya'kong matulog kahit konti sa balikat nya.

Ang komportable kase ng balikat nya mamsh, mas masarap matulog sa balikat nya kaysa sa upuan hehe.

"Miss," I called once again.

She hums in response once more.

"Labyu."

She chuckled once more, with a sweet smile forming onto her lips.

"I love you more Ara." Natawa naman ako dahil dun, her brows furrowed right away.

"What's funny?" She asked.

"This," I explained. "Hindi naman tayo, yet we say words of affirmation to one another."

"At sinong may sabing hindi tayo?"

I choked at my own saliva because of what she said, I stood there, not moving. Still shocked about what she said.

"Haven't I made you clear that you're mine?" She asked.

Wala parin akong nasagot sa tanong nyang yon, I still can't believe what's coming out of her mouth. Hindi ko alam kung nananaginip ba'ko o hindi.

Patampal nga po.

"Incase I haven't, well." She came closer to me. "Eres mía, mi amor." She whispered with that bold spanish accent. "Which means I'm now in full possession of you, and you are now under my property. Understood?"

...

Shit. I messed up.

The whole school now knows na kami ni Ysa, I don't know who it is, pero someone saw us sa school library together. And the next thing I know is rumours are going around sa school claiming na kami daw.

Nasa cr ako ngayon having a mental breakdown, the news came in earlier this morning and I'm sure by now nakarating na ito kay Ysa.

I panic even more at that thought, hindi, hindi pwede.

We're dead.

We specifically kept our relationship hidden kase bawal, kase hindi pwede, at pag nalaman both our world will collapse. To be honest, I don't care kung masira pa ang future ko, I can handle it. But si Miss...Lahat ng pinaghirapan nya, all her hard work, even her license is now at risk.

I didn't bother going to my classes anymore, sa library na'ko nanatili buong araw. I texted Ysa rin nung lunch time na pumunta rito after class to discuss kung anong gagawin namin sa rumours na kumakalat.

"Miss, I'm sorry." Yun lang ang tangi kong masabi as I cry in her arms. "Hindi ko alam kung paano nakalat yon but-"

"Ara, we can't continue this anymore." She said, making me look up to her.

"Miss-"

"Everybody knows, sooner or later the principal will know as well. Our future would be ruined Ara, especially yours. And I can't handle that." She explained.

"B-But I don't mind." I shook my head, crying heavily.

"I can't bare knowing I've ruined your future Ara. You're a wonderful student, malayo ang mararating mo. And I can't have you bound to this just because I love you." She explained.

I cried even harder.

"Maybe in another time Ara, but now's not the perfect time." She assured me.

"But I don't want to have you In another lifetime, I don't want another me to have you in another universe. I want you in this life time and I'm the only one who can have you." Pagdadamot ko.

"But you can't be bound to me, we both know that Ara." She smiled and pecked a kiss on my forehead. "Time will come and we have to part ways, napaaga lang talaga."

"But I don't want to let you go..."

"Do good out there for me hm? I love you." She gave me one last peck on my forehead before leaving the library.

And that people is my cause of death.

Ano tingin nya hahabulin ko sya?

Soon.

;)