𝟓𝟕 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

𝟲𝟭; 𝗜 𝗴𝗼 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂

𝟏𝟑

Time is cruel—the cruelest out of all, and that's what Felix has realized these past few weeks. two days had already passed since he last came home and now he was back in this hospital room with needles piercing his skin and unnamed medicine and drugs being injected into his body. he feels lethargic and can barely move ever since this new part of the treatment had started, Chan told him that he will get a rest for five days before they transition into the second round but suddenly out of nowhere the Doctor called them and so here he was

though Chan didn't say anything out of the ordinary Felix could sense the latter was discomforted by the lack of time they had, he felt regretful about taking so long to agree but he knew he wasn't the one to blame either. 'we'll have to speed up the process, there isn't anything alarming but we can't be too comfortable' is what Chan had told the two boys and Felix can visibly see how restless Hyunjin has been ever since. it makes Felix greatly upset but he's aware there's nothing he can do to help Hyunjin except wait

"This is hectic, isn't it" he mumbled through a surge of nausea as Hyunjin hummed gently in response, standing a little far away from him because Chan had advised them not to get too touchy and close with each other. 'what do you mean by that!' had come Hyunjin's parade of utter drama and Felix had only been natural to the revelation, or at least he tried to be. because the craving for Hyunjin's touch and warm embrace was making him lose his mind, he just wanted to hug the other and feel his skin but he knew for Hyunjin to be safe it wasn't possible, maybe he could tolerate it after all if it were for Hyunjin then maybe he can bear it, maybe he can dodge the rage of his desires.

"you'll be fine, darling" Hyunjin sighs deeply, shoving his hands in his black suit pants' pockets and staring deeply into Felix's lazy half-shut eyes "I hope" is all Felix can mutter under the extreme tiredness he was. there was a splitting headache in the front of his mind and he continuously felt like throwing up even if he hadn't eaten anything. "By the way, you look exceptionally gorgeous in your new attire" Felix mumbles through a heave of breath and it takes Hyunjin by storm as the boy is left fumbled and embarrassed with scorching cheeks

"I--uh, thanks" he clears his throat, looking down at his shoes. the boy had been dressing formally due to his new job and it made him shy to think that Felix liked the way he was dressing now, a soft smile blossoms on his lips before he bites it away upon Chan's entry "Hello, boys. how are we doing?" his tone is cheery as Hyunjin looks up at him with a dead-straight expression making Chan immediately lose his zeal as he turns toward Felix "Feeling okay?" he questions, walking up to the brunette

Hyunjin takes in the way he's dressed and covered and it sparks an idea in his mind "If I dress like that, can I be close to lix?" He questions, rather abruptly as Chan turns to look at him and then down at his gown and gloves "I uh fear not" Chan clears his throat, noticing how fatal the demon behind Hyunjin's eyes is 'why does he hate me so much?'  Chan wonders in his mind before looking at Felix again "How many days left till it's over?" Hyunjin queries, capturing Chan's attention "I can't say for sure, Hyunjin. but a month is the least and three is the most"

anxiety churns in the deepest depth of Hyunjin's stomach, a month? his eyes falter to Felix who had his eyes shut he most likely had passed out while the two boys began talking to each other considering he was already sleepy "Three..." he silences his voice getting stuck in his throat "Three months?" he looks up from Felix to Chan who nods his head with a deep sigh "I'm trying my best to rush through it but there's only so much we can do" Hyunjin can't think straight, his hands are shaky when he gulps down saliva to ease his clogging throat

"he doesn't have..."

he doesn't want to say those words ever. not now, not later. there's a blur before his eyes as his mind races to the possibility of Felix running out of time when he stumbles backward and feels his chest tighten utterly, to the point where it's hard to breathe, all of that just at the thought of the brunette possible slipping into the cracks of fate "Hyunjin?" Chan's voice knocks at his senses as the raven head snaps back into reality and focuses on the man before him "All we can do is pray and have faith, you need to stay strong" Chan's words are gentle but they seem so harsh and not encouraging whatsoever