𝟓𝟕 𝐝𝐚𝐲𝐬; 𝐡𝐲𝐮𝐧𝐥𝐢𝐱

𝟳𝟬; 𝘁𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝘂𝘀 𝗺𝗲𝗲𝘁

There lay Lee Felix, dead and gone. No traces of life left on his face as though he had never been alive, like he had never been grazed with the blessings of springs or caressed with the warm touch of summer, the cold shivers of winter, and the gentle breeze of autumn, like he'd been gone for a long time now even though it had merely been two hours since his passing.  Hospital policies required he'd be moved to a morgue shortly after his death, but Chan insisted he remain in his room, in the very bed Hyunjin had last seen him until the man arrived

this would've not been possible usually but since Felix was someone very dear to Chan, one of the most significant doctors of the hospital, rules were bend. Felix was left untouched, the procedures that ought to occur were halted and time was frozen, the room and its walls, the sunset hues from outside and the dim lamp, everything held their breaths and awaited the lover of the now pronounced deceased boy.

And when he arrived, when the wheels of time spun again, it was a slow and brutal hell that broke. Hyunjin stood there, in the midst of the room by the end of Felix's feet, just gaping at whatever lay before him because that wasn't his beloved, it surely had to be a clone or some other faux lie, because Felix was very much alive the last time Hyunjin saw him, he looked sick sure but he was perfectly fine. But the person who lies in his place now looks nothing like him, there is no flush in his cheeks, no smile on his pretty lips because they're chapped and purple, pressed shut

his cheeks are hallowed and pale and his eyes are closed shut and Hyunjin refuses to accept reality, his lips fall apart and a terrified gasp runs past them. This cannot be Felix, no it is not him. This is not the boy Hyunjin is so madly in love with. Tears have begun streaming down his face but Hyunjin fails to concede it, just as he doesn't concede the fact that Felix is no longer here and he has passed, fails to concede that this is likely the last time he can look at Felix without measure

there is no point describing how greatly wretched his heart is. There's a numbness that spreads all throughout his body and he's frozen, just gaping at the dead body of his lover. He's praying silently that he will move but he doesn't so he gathers his strength, doesn't even know what he's doing and he's too shattered to try and speak but he does anyway, voice coming out heavily shaky "Felix?" he calls out but no response comes, unlike the normal times where only a single call from him would gather the attention of the brunette

"Felix?" He speaks again and waits longer for a response this time but he's only met with disappointment. So his lips quiver and tears never stop falling as he chokes on a sob, gasping for air but only a burn spreads in his lungs rather than the soothing balm of oxygen. He must be damned, cursed, hexed. His fate must be truly, wickedly poisoned that this has befallen him, otherwise how could a person bear so much misery? how could they lose everything in the blink of an eye? 

Hyunjin was not fortunate that much was confirmed, if he was, he'd still have Felix and he would not be stolen from him. None of the glory in the world matters now that Felix has been taken from him. Hyunjin takes another step closer to the gone boy, his pale skin like a thorn for the taller's eyes as he gazes at him, praying and praying that maybe some miracle will bestow and Felix will come back to life, he could bleed his knees pleading and beg for eternity yet that won't change anything, Felix was gone for good 

he sobs yet again and it echoes like haunted bells this time, in the room that had once been sunlit, filled with the gleam of Felix's smile and their love, was now a barren land like it was a graveyard from the ancient days, traveled here through a time machine. Hyunjin wishes to reach out to Felix but he doesn't have the guts to do it so he just stands there with shaking shoulders, next to Felix, watching him and crying because what else could he do? Stand and watch is all that is in his control, he knows touching Felix will only wreck him worse, will only prove that this is real and not some sick nightmare