Do you love me? ~ Smosh Fanfiction

Chapter XXVI ~ Misty ~ A l o n e

Heya guys!

The world is full of stress at the moment, but I promise nothing will ever stop me posting new chapters on Thursdays, ehehe

Have a fabulous week- you're all beautiful and I love you. This is the last sad chapter- I promise <3

lots of love, fluffie <3

Chapter 26 ~ Misty Cooper

Song: Youth by Daugher- cover by DanielaSings...(gorgeous voice- and I think I did Daughter before but not this song...) I'm so sorry...I always switch around songs when I find they fit some chapters better.

Yet again, I found myself watching some anime that I'd seen three times already in the last week. I wasn't watching it. I knew I wasn't, really. I was just in deep thought. Ian and Anthony had gone out to shoot, leaving me alone to my thoughts. I couldn't help but feel like I was being eaten away by my loneliness.

I just couldn't make myself happy.

No-one liked me. I couldn't face anything by myself. I couldn't even face my phone anymore. I just kept it in my chest of drawers.

Kristie was angry. Only a few hours since me and Ian saw the article, I received texts from her. They began loud:

YOU AND IAN ARE FUCKING TOGETHER? for HOW LONG!?

And gradually faded into something more rational.

Misty, I thought we were friends!? Why the hell did you not tell me you and Ian were dating? Ngl, I'm pissed off rn.

After that, I didn't touch my phone. I didn't want to see anyone. I didn't want to go out, in the fear that a Smosher recognized me. The whole fanbase definitely hated me- there was no chance I was going to readily give them a chance to see me in person.

And there was no fucking WAY Vidcon would happen anymore. That was just asking for trouble- everyone would give me the dirtiest looks, insult me, and judge Ian because of me. I didn't want to cause Ian any extra hassle. He didn't need that on top of the stress of performing live and doing signing after signing.

I had no clue what to do about my parents. I didn't know if they knew about it- let alone what they thought of it. I was in a situation where I couldn't bring it up, in fear they didn't know and I'd have to explain the hate situation- and through THAT they'd find out that me and Ian had been dating. It would be a bit too much for them to handle if in the first week of us dating, there had already been trouble. We'd probably have to break up, and that would crush me, even if it didn't crush Ian.

In addition, I didn't need yet another bad thing happening out here. Needless to say, I'd be back in England before I knew it if this situation got worse. Enough horrible things had happened already with Jay and such.

But, I couldn't keep my parents or family in the dark.

I couldn't help but be angry at myself. I was the one who had instigated the kiss. How did I not consider that we'd get caught? We were in a HOTEL LOBBY. People can walk in and out of a lobby- of course someone could catch us. Ian had warned me, and I'd ignorantly forgotten about his warnings because I was too desperate to have the pleasure of kissing him.

This was all my fault. Everyone now knew about our relationship. And I knew it was all because of my stupid doing.

But that wasn't it. I'd also turned people against Ian. Twitter said it all.