Silent Wolf

Talking

VANCE

As I drove toward the park I couldn't help but continue to have all of my emotions swarming around inside of me.

Last night I was beyond hurt, and I lashed out in the worst possible way.

I knew what I did was wrong, it should've never happened...but I'm also sort of glad that it had happened. Like the bartender had said, her actions had caused a slight moment of relief...of course the relief only lasted while I drove back home, because once I stepped into my shower the intense wave of guilt crashed into me.

I pulled up next to Elise's car, she wasn't in it so I figured she's be sitting at one of the table.

I got off and immediately spotted her (as I had suspected) at one of the picnic tables, alone...and with every step I took toward her, I can clearly see the sadness all over her face.

I took a seat opposite her.

"Hi." She offered.

"Hey."

And there it was...for the first time since meeting her an awkward silence fell between us.

"...how's Mariah?" I asked just to break the thick tension surrounding us.

She sighed heavily, "Mariah is fine."

I nodded my head, "I'm glad to hear that, really."

Once again neither one of us knew what to say.

"Can you just say something?" She asked, I could see she was already on the verge of tears.

"What's there to say Elise...what's done is done, you fucked up, I fucked up...that's it."

"Sounds like your done with us."

Once again I shrugged, "to be honest Elise, I never thought you'd go off and have sex with some random guy, so I can't really see how any relationship we had can continue to go forward from there."

"Oh just like I never imagined you'd go off and find the first slut willing to do who the hell knows what with!" She replied defensively.

We both sat there staring angrily at each other.

"Did you at least use protection?" She asked angrily.

"I let a chick blow me after I found out my future fiancée ran off to California to fuck some other guy!" I finally said out loud.

I was pissed that she had left me when I needed her the most, I was devastated that she would let someone else even touch her and here she was now, staring at me as if I was the bad guy.

"I-it's not like I went looking for some guy to sleep with...unlike you, you literally went searching for a girl just to get even or something."

I couldn't stop the slight humorless chuckled that fell from my mouth. "Even... ? If I wanted to get even I would've fuck her, I only let her suck my dick...you're the one who opened her legs for another man willingly."

My words were harsh as the truth behind them even cut my own being.

I couldn't help but let the angry tears that had built up from the night before finally come forward, "I thought you loved me, you were suppose to be my mate, my forever...how could you Elise, after everything we've been through."

If I hadn't have recently lost my wolf I would've died right now, my wolf would have gone into full on shut down mode at the sound of our mate being with someone else.

I shook my head and wiped my face clean, I wouldn't let her see me like this.

She too was crying now.

"I'm sorry." She sobbed. "I love you Vance."

I shook my head at the sound of her pleading tone..."I can't just forgive and forget this Elise, and neither should you for what I've done." I manned up and said, "I know I said we need to talk, but truth be told...I just can't be around you right now."

She wiped her face and rolled her eyes as she snickered at my last words, "you see what happens when we're apart." She said in reference to both of us messing with other people.

I knew I was being a dick but I simply shrugged, "then maybe we were never meant to be together in the first place."

At that she slapped me, "fuck you...I don't even know who you are, because the Vance I knew would fucking fight for me."

She got up and walked off toward her car without looking back once, not even when I called after her in an attempt to get her to come back to the table.

I watched her peel off and headed in the direction opposite her house, I didn't know where she was going and it was killing me to know I couldn't just pull out my phone and ask her where she was heading.

But one thing was abundantly clear...
Despite every single thing that happened I couldn't help but still love her and I knew deep down I desperately wanted to be with her, I just need her to feel the hurt I felt when I got that call.

I finally got up from the table and got back into my car, I took off back to the frat house and went straight up to my room, Elise and I hadn't exactly discussed what we would tell people so I knew I wanted to stay away from my prying parents.

To my knowledge I think we had just broken up.

Of course I hope that we can resolve our issues sooner rather than later, but there's always the real possibility that we might never be able to see past each others mistakes and we'd just end up staying broken up.

I got a text from my mom shortly after.

[Mom: Elise just came by, is everything alright son?]

I sighed heavily as I text her back.

[Vance: It's difficult mom, did she say anything?]

It didn't take long for her to respond.

[Mom: She didn't say much just said she was here to drop some stuff off and left the keys to her car on your bed before she left walking.]

I tried to growl but without my wolf it didn't come out nearly as menacing as I had meant it to. Elise was being stupid, as if I'd ever ask for the gifts I'd purchased for her back, and what's worse, she left walking...she isn't exactly a Were anymore, she'd tire herself out or worse someone could kidnap her or rape her.

I wanted to throw my phone but got another message from my mom.

[Mom: I don't know what's going on between you two but despite and possible quarrels I gave her a ride much to her protest.]

[Mom: also I won't say any more on the subject except: if something is going on between you two, you need to figure it out son, before you lose her for good!]

My mother was right despite how hurt I felt I knew I needed to fix things with her before I do in fact lose her forever. Because without her wolf she could very well have any guy she wants...I just had to make sure she chooses me again.