It's been about 2 weeks since I last saw Connor. Ahh what is up with this boy! I tried calling him several times texting him even. Now's not a good time to just disappear like that when we're trying to find Andre. Junior, Daniel and I are trying to make the next move since the first one was a bust but, we can't really do anything since Connor knows all of Trey's moves but HE'S NOT FUCKING HERE IS HE. I could barely concentrate in school because of this mess... Thank God it's half term though, juggling school with Andre is way too much to handle for me let alone Daniel. We're no where near finding Andre and the more time passes the more worried I become.
*Ring Ring*
I answer without checking the caller ID
Me: Hello
???: Hey... Lexi
Me: Connor?
Connor: Why do you sound surprised?
Me: Well maybe because you haven't been answering my calls recently
Connor: I'm sorry about that
Me: You scared the shit out of me
Connor: I'm sorry.... Where are you
Me: Bus stop outside school, why?
Connor: I'm coming to pick you up
Me: Connor don't, it's not a good idea to be seen together
*Hungs up*
Ahh this boy never listens, I just pray that my bus gets here before he does.
I check the bus time and 453 is coming in 2 minutes, right just two minu..
*HONK HONK*
I turn to the left to see Connor's car parked next to the bus stop... Great
I walk towards it while having eyes on me watching my every move.
Me: I told you not to pick me up
Connor: And since when do I listen to your orders? Besides you're not safe being alone
Me: Me being with you is not safe either
Connor: Well at least I can protect you. Now get in and stop making a scene
I get in at the back seat and go through my phone in silence . The car was driving steadily but fast, when I do look up and stare at his chiselled shoulders and his sharp jaw line he sometimes catches me staring at him.
Connor: Are you going to ask or what?
Me: Ask about what?
He looks at me through the rear view mirror
Connor: Nothing
Then looks back at the road
I see a slight bruising on his neck
Me: What the fuck happened?
I say while pulling his collar down making the bruise more visible
Connor: Lexi let go of me
He's fighting me off
Me: Connor what happened to you
Connor: Nothing
Me: WHAT DO YOU MEAN NOTHING? TELL ME
Connor: It's nothing to worry about
Me: Connor!
Connor: LEXI LEAVE IT ALRIGHT! I'M FINE
I'm silenced by shock, what happened to him? Why won't he tell me?
Connor: I'm sorry for shouting... I didn't mean to hurt your feelings
Me: I'm not the one that's actually hurt
Connor sighs of frustration and continues turning a corner to our road. We park in front of my house just sitting there in silence.
Me: Thanks for the lift
I say sarcastically waiting for him to reply but he stays quiet. I open the car door and proceed to step out of the car.
Connor: We found Andre
He says abruptly out the window
Oh my God! They found him?! How?
Me: How?!
I say while taking a seat at the passengers seat
Connor: Me and Junior went to Daniel's house to look for Daniel but he wasn't there. Instead we found his brother. He told us that he went to Trey's last week and saw a mixed race young adult tied up at the back of Trey's room. At first me and Junior didn't believe that that could be Andre cause it would of been too easy and Trey wasn't that stupid to hide the most wanted guy in drug dealer history in his fucking house. But we had no other leads so we thought it was worth a try. To our surprise it was actually Andre. We went unarmed since we thought that the odds weren't in our favour. We only saw a glimpse of him before all hell broke loose and bullets started flying. A few guys roughed us up a little but we got out there without that many bruises.
Me: Oh my God
I could feel my eyes watering. I was feeling mixed emotions anger sympathy and hope, hope that Andre was actually alive. A tear rolled down my cheek
Connor: No, no, no don't cry
He wiped away my tear with his middle finger and continued to stroke it. He leaned in closer but stopped, so I leaned in the rest making our lips touch. We started kissing for a while until he broke it off and stared at the road
Me: Why didn't you tell me what was happening? I was getting annoyed that you wasn't replying to my messages
Connor: I know I'm sorry everything happened so fast I just wanted to be alone for a while
Me: Why?
Connor: To figure things out
Me: Like what?
Connor: Like us
He says while looking at the wheel
Me: Can you at least look at me while you're talking to me
He doesn't move
Me: CONNOR!
Connor: I LOVE YOU!
He says angrily
Me: I know
Connor: No as in I'm IN love with you
Me: Connor I know
Connor: No you don't! I mean I love you so much I want to marry you, spend the rest of my life with you, grow old and have kids with you
*Silence*
Me: W-what's wrong with that?
Connor: I don't want to feel this way, I shouldn't feel this way. I killed your first love for crying out loud, I did so many bad things to you, I've hurt you, made you cry, made you hate me. Why would you want to be with someone like me. I don't understand. It's not right.
Me: What are you trying to say
My eyes are watering up again. Ahh why is this happening?! Why am I crying for him. He's right, I should be hating him right now but, the truth is he's my first love, him, Connor not Simon! I didn't want to admit it to myself until now.
Connor: We should just stop what we're doing before you get really hurt
Me: Connor please
Connor: Lexi! Ahh... Don't make this harder than it already is. It's the best thing for the both of us. I will continue to help you find Andre, I'll still be around but we can't do this anymore. Okay?
*Silence*
Connor: Okay
He repeats
Me: Okay
I say almost inaudible to then leave the car.
What is this bright light shining in my face? I awake and realise it's the morning after the confrontation with Connor. Great! I stayed up all night just replaying what happened in the car and drinking some Vodka trying to numb the pain. I called him a few times, Connor I mean. First time he picked up, then probably realised that I was a bit wasted... Actually a lot wasted and didn't answer the rest of my calls. The last thing he said was "Lexi put down the drink and go to sleep before you hurt yourself". Why does this hurt so much? Why does him ending this little flirting thing we had hurt so bad? It shouldn't hurt this much, it shouldn't hurt at all. Now I have a banging headache on a blazing Saturday morning.
*RING RING*
I ignore the call and almost instantaneously it rings again and proceed to check the caller ID and pick up
Me: What do you want Junior
Junior: I'm coming over with Daniel
Me: No!
*DING DONG*
Junior: Too late
He hangs up
Ahhh these boys man. Like a zombie, I walk down the stairs of the quiet house. Mum went to work and sisters went to their friends house. I open the front door and see Junior and Daniel standing there grinning. I don't have time for their nonsense if they're playing about, I have a fucking headache.
Me: What?
I groan
Junior: You look like death. Get dressed we got a lead
He says walking past me and entering my living room
Me: W-what do you mean we got a lead
Junior: Meaning we know where Andre is... Momentarily
Daniel: Hurry up before they move again
Me: Why do you need me there
Junior: Thought you wanted to help?
Me: I do bu-
Junior: Then come on
Daniel: Besides we need bait
I walk sluggishly up the stairs and into my room. As I was getting dressed into my tracksuit I could hear Daniel shout from downstairs to hurry up. What is the rush? I know we have to move fast but this! This is too fast. I wonder if Connor knows about this? He must know he's the one that devises all our plans.
Daniel: ALEXIS!!!!!!!
Me: OH MY GOD I'M COMING
I grab my phone and rush down stairs
Daniel: After 10 years
Me: Shut up
We leave the house and make our way to the destination. In the car journey the guys explained the plan to me. Andre is in a warehouse...typical. He's in one of the back rooms. My role is to sneak in the back find Andre and leave with him. Simple right? Wrong, apparently there are loads of guards that I have to dodge and apparently there other guys, apart from Andre, that Trey is keeping hostage so I literally have to find him. I have to avoid the main entrance at all cost because that's where Trey would be and he still thinks I'm dead.
Daniel: Ready Lexi?
He says interrupting my thoughts. I get out the car and look around, this place isn't familiar, in fact it's completely different to the warehouses I've been in. For one this warehouse is next to a motorway and it is huge! It looks like a factory. It is a three story building with metal staircases on the outside.
Daniel: Alexis!
Me: S-sorry u-um yeah I'm r-ready
Daniel: You sure? We can't mess this up
Me: Yeah I'm sure
Junior: Wait!
He says while hanging up his phone call.
Junior: Wait a few minutes
Daniel: Bu-
Junior: Just wait!
A few minutes went past and a black car pulls up... I look at the boys for some answers but they look so scared like they're going to shit their pants. I turn back around and see Connor coming out the car and walking towards us. My heart starts beating 10 times faster then it was a second a go. I try to straighten up as I am still hungover from yesterday. Should I wave? Say hi? Greet him? I mean it's only been a couple of hours since yesterday but feels like a century. Is he even going to speak to me? Ahh. I decide to remain silent and see how he is acting. I stare at him straight in the face but he doesn't break eye contact with Junior and Daniel.
Connor: WHY THE FUCK IS SHE HERE!
Daniel: Bro listen-
He starts to back away as Connor steps forward
Connor: DID I NOT SPECIFICALLY SAY DO NOT INVOLVE HER
Junior: Look we didn't know if you wanted any part of this plan as you said it was shit so we came up with a plan B
Connor: BY GETTING LEXI INVOLVED! ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID! ANDRE'LL KILL YOU IF HIS BABY SISTER GETS HURT
Junior: She's not going to get hurt, Daniel's going to protect her
Connor: Daniel? Ahhha this Daniel? DANIEL IS A FUCKING TWIG HE COULD'T EVEN PROTECT HIMSELF LET ALONE SOMEONE ELSE
Daniel: AYY MAN CHILL. WE ALL KNOW YOU LOVE LEXI MAN! WE ALL KNOW THE REAL REASON WHY YOU DON'T WANT HER TO GET HURT IS BECAUSE YOU CARE ABOUT HER! NOT BECAUSE OF ANDRE!
*BANG BANG*
Connor throws two punches to Daniel's eye which he then falls to the floor in pain. Connor lifts up his arm about to throw another when I rush to his side and pull him back
Connor: GET OFF ME
Me: Connor what the fuck are you doing?
Connor: What the fuck are yoouu doing here?
Me: He's my brother I need to help him
Connor: You don't need to. We are doing that for you
Me: Why? Why the fuck are you doing that for me. Stop doing shit for me
Connor: Come! I'm taking you home
He grabs my arm but I pull it free.
Me: NO!
Connor: Alexis
He says in a low testing voice
Me: I said No! I'm going to help. Either be apart of it or leave
Connor stared at me for a while then realised that I'm serious and not changing my mind.
Connor: Daniel, Junior be on a look out, me and Lexie will get Andre
