I tried reading words on the poster on my wall. I couldn't. I was going blind. Darkness was slowly closing in around me every day and I didn't know what to do, nor do I want to tell the others. I'd get humiliated.
Tonight was getting progressively harder to do anything. I kept running into walls and almost hitting fragile items mainly in Logan's room.
Though, the next morning was agony for me. I was completely blind. My eyes were open, but the room was filled with darkness. I heard birds chirping and I knew it was morning.
(God my left hand is cramping soooo bad!)
I decided to stay in my room. This lasted for days. By now, I've lost track of time. At the moment, owls are hooting outside my window.
I almost completely lost hope for my chances of fixing this. By the time I was in here for eight or nine days, I could feel that I was practically skeletal. I could feel my bones and I was freezing. I could tell I was going to fade very soon.
Sadly, one night while I just sat on my bed, staring at the wall, I heard my door open and someone grabbed my arm.
"Who are you?!"
"Don't worry Princey, it's just me!"
"I just want to know who you are!"(Sorry, I was too lazy to go back and check for what they said)
"It's me, Anxiety, can't you see me?"
I couldn't hold it back anymore. I started crying into what I think was his jacket.
"No, it can't..."
"Are you...um....how do I say thi-"
"I'm blind. And I'm fading."
I heard a gasp and he hugged me real tight.
"Princey. How?How are you blind?I want answers. Maybe we can fix this!"He was tugging on my arm for me to get up.
"Anx, this isn't a fucking movie!Just live with it!I'm going to die and there's nothing you can do!"He stopped.
"That's not the annoying prince I know. He-"
"Anxiety. Listen to me. I'm fading, because I have no hope!I'm nothing!I've lost all ability to make dreams and be optimistic!I'm not Princey!I'm a fading piece of shit!!You need to understand the reality!!"
I heard quiet sobs from in front of me. Three of them. I looked down at the floor.
"Roman....you're not...yourself..."I could easily tell that was Logan.
"Logan, you need to understand this okay?All of you. I'm fading and I won't gain hope. I'm blind and I can't create dreams. You all wanted me to understand reality, so here it is. I'm. Going. To. Die."
"B-but kiddo. Yo-"
"Morality. Please understand that I am not your kid. And I will never be. You need to understand that nobody can live forever. Not even you."
A loud sob was heard from him.
At that moment, I felt weak and fell to the floor. It was almost time.
"Roman. Come on. We can fix this!Don't you have any kind of potion or spell you can use?!"
I could barely talk.
"Anxiety...I'm not a Disney character....I'm not a Disney prince...."
And before I could even go, I felt lips on mine and a small voice before I was drowned in darkness.
"But you're my Disney prince...."
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Sorry, that was really sad and short. Tbh, I'm getting used to writing death scenes. Though, I don't want to do too many.
9 more to go!
Goodbye precious garden flowers and beautiful Sanders Sunshine!!
Tulip out!
