MY BOSS'S DAUGHTER (COMPLETED)✔

CHAPTER 58- BLAME AND GUILT

Fawaz came back and found the ladies sitting on the sofa, he is relieved on finding Maha's head still covered with dupatta. Miara is consoling her mother while herself is crying, Maha is simply sitting fidgeting with her fingers. Seriously, she doesn't know how to console, for sure she is a spoilt child. Fawaz came to them, Miara's mother looked at him, her eyes red and swollen. On seeing him Fawaz noticed anger in her eyes, she stood up and after glaring at him for some time she slapped Fawaz hard.

Maha and Miara both stood up

'Ma' Miara said holding her mother's shoulder, Fawaz held his cheek that felt very warm. He looked down guiltily.

'Stop it Miara, wat the hell is this man doing here? I told you specifically I don't want to see his face' she growled, Fawaz still didn't look up, his eyes fell on Maha and noticed she has clenched her fists tightly, he looked up at her and shook his head, his eyes pleading her to not react.

'Ma, Fawaz was concerned so he came' Miara argued softly, her mother shoved her hands from her shoulders

'Concerned? He is the reason your father is no more' she said breaking down crying again. Miara hugged her mother and started to cry with her murmuring, 'No Ma...no Ma'

Maha looked at Fawaz but he is looking at the two ladies with tears in his eyes. He felt a soft palm holding his hand, he turned his head and saw Maha standing next to him holding his hand

'Let's go' she whispered, Fawaz wanted to refuse but he decided to leave as his presence will make it just more difficult for Miara's mother.

Miara looked up at Fawaz, they spoke through their eyes. Miara nodded and turned back to her mother, Fawaz sighed. He turned around and left with Maha tagging behind.

**************************

'Ahh....' Fawaz yelled slamming his fist against the bonnet of the car, Maha removed her dupatta and threw it inside the car through the open window. Fawaz fell to his knees and started to cry. Everything is getting too much for him, his shoulder, and his heart feeling too fragile to hold the mountain of guilt anymore. Maha hurried towards him kneeling beside him.

'I...can't...can't...take.... take....it' he said in between his weeping

'It will be okay...'she said bringing his head against her chest and caressing back of his head

'I...am...am...the cause of everyone's miseries...Miara's...Miara's parents...you...my parents...Tasneem maam...everyone...I... don't...deserve to live...I deserve to die...die...' he said looking up at the sky, tears streaming down his cheek.

'Shut...Shut...shut up...else I will slap you' Maha warned smacking his arm, her own voice cracking.

He doesn't respond but kept crying. She rested his head on her shoulder and massages his arms lovingly. He squeezed his eyes tight letting more tears fall

'All...for...my...selfish reasons.... I deserve no one...I deserve a lonely death....'

'Fawaz...please...stop' Maha pleaded, tears now flowing from her eyes as well, it is getting unbearable for her seeing Fawaz broken so badly. Fawaz has had enough, he has reached his breaking point.

Because of him, Miara lost her parents, and the difference between the daughter and parents took a toll on her father and eventually became the reason of his death. He always wanted to be on top, he was overambitious to reach new heights in his career, but he had always wanted to be there with his own merit and hard work but when Tasneem gave him an easy way out, he felt tempted but he stood his moral ground but when she threatened of giving away the position he had worked so hard for to someone else he gave in and agreed to her, he got married to Maha though at that point he didn't love her. He tried being a good husband and make Maha feel loved in all ways, then Miara came back into his life terribly bruised and having been disowned by her family, Fawaz felt responsible...he did what he felt was right, and yet at the wedding his love for Maha overpowered him and he couldn't ruin Miara's life more by chaining her in a loveless marriage. But stood by her encouraged her to pursue MBA in Australia and helped her settled. Yet everything got messed up, somehow. And now the burden of everything was suffocating him

'I am a very bad person...Maha...kill me.... kill me' he said grabbing her hands and placing her palms on his neck pressing them. Maha panicked and tried to free her hand

'Fawaz...no...No...' she sobbed managing to free her hand, Fawaz wiped his tears from behind his palms. She cupped his face making him look at her.

'Fawaz...you are not a bad person...you are very good person...you have a soft heart...' she said caressing his face, her lips trembled and her beautiful eyes red and filled with tears. Fawaz shook his head.

'Everyone...around...me is upset because of me....' he cried, feeling sorry for himself. Maha made him stand, she held his head facing her.

'You are not a bad man...and I am there for you...always...'she said hugging him. Fawaz pushed her making her stumble few steps back, she looked shocked.

'You are going to divorce me, right? Then how will you be with me forever?' he snapped at her

Maha cried holding his arms, 'I did fake sign on the paper, it was...was...just...to scare you' she confessed and rested her head on his shoulder crying. Fawaz is taken aback with the revelation.

'The fact is...I love you too much to leave you.' she sobbed, Fawaz moved from her grip and looked at her.

'If you love me so much then why you left me for five years?' he asked sternly

She looked at him, 'I can't share you with anyone else, it hurts me so much to see you with some other woman...I know I was selfish...but I couldn't help it...everyone, I loved eventually left me and before you could... I left you (she sniffed) then I slipped into depression, I wanted to come back but my mental condition wasn't letting me...I was at my worse.... then ...I...had also tried suicide but then I discovered I am pregnant and I stopped...I was hoping for getting pregnant that is why I had asked you to make love to me before I left...I wanted a part of you to cherish forever...Dr. Zubair helped me out from it, and for his happiness, I pretended like I moved on...but, in reality, I was waiting for...you' she confessed

Fawaz moved his arms away from him, 'you don't love me Maha...you love yourself...if you loved me you would have understood my situation.' He said sternly

She started to sob, 'I was naïve...and I was stupid...but please don't blame yourself...I can't see you like this' she pleaded. Fawaz could feel his heart melting but right now there was so much going on inside him. He was at a bigger fault than she was, he was the one who decided to marry Miara even though he was married to Maha. Maha is human after all and she reacted like any other normal woman would have reacted.

'Get in the car...' he said and walked towards the driver seat, he has finally composed himself but the storm inside him still brewing.

'Fawaz...Fawaz...' Maha said rushing towards him and grabbed his arm.

'You need someone with you... You are very disturbed.... come to my place...Majid and Faheem will divert your mind...you will feel better.' She said

'Why you care?' he said jerking his arms from hers

'Because I love you, you idiot...and you are talking nonsense of killing yourself and I can't bear that...' she said. Fawaz looked at her for a while. He nodded. Maha smiled.

He placed his fingers to open the driver's seat when Maha placed her hand over his, 'I will drive.' she said and he nodded moving his fingers. They drove back in silence.