Whispers of the Night

Tulip petals

Observing his face and the mixture of colours in his eyes, my ears analysed the sound coming from his lips.

"What I am asking, is if you would ever fall back in love with me?"

My breath hitched in my throat as I took aboard of what he had just asked. Thoughts rushed my drug induced mind, questions seeking answers that I just didn't have.

"Lettie?" Zak asked noticing my silence.

"T-there's no simple answer too that." I whispered watching his face flicker with an unknown emotion that I instantly wanted to investigate, translate and examine.

I swallowed thickly letting the soreness of my throat distract my mind, a small coping mechanism that may work for only a short while..

His large hand retook mine folding his fingers around my hand gently "I need to know, I need to know if there's something-"

"You ex girlfriend has just tried to kill me." I stated slowly watching his teeth dug into his bottom lip suppressing his agitation at my answer.

"It wasn't my fault." He bit.

"I-I'm not saying it is. But... Right now? All I want it to hold my daughter and promise her everything is going to be okay, even if I don't believe it myself."

His brows furrowed "What does that mean? I- I wouldn't hurt you!"

"But you did... Once upon a time."

His hand attempted to pull away from mine, but I tightened my grip this time. "Zak, no. Listen."

"No, no I don't want to listen anymore, I know your ans-"

"You can't just jump woman to woman, that's not how love works. I- There hasn't been anyone since you, you idiot."

He paused.

"How could there be? You destroyed me for another man, you broke my heart. But I don't hate you for it. I don't hold it against you, you... You made me stronger. But what I am saying... Is that you need time alone, to work on what you want."

"I want you. I know what I want!"

"But three days ago you were most likely in bed with Holly. Whilst I was at home, with our daughter. Zak, you've had 48 hours to deal with all this." I gestured with my hand.

"But-"

"No buts... Sweetie, it feels like this has only just happened."

He lowered his head looking at our hands "So you're saying no. But politely."

"No, but I'm not saying yes either. Look. Look at me." I took his face lifting it gently to look at me. "You can't plan to fall in love, it happens when you least expect it. Sneaks around in the dark and consumes your soul the moment you are alone. Almost like a demon, if you need it in paranormal terms. And whilst it can be the greatest feeling in the world, it can also be one of the scariest."

"I know what love is Scarlett, I'm not 4 years old, I'm 40 years old!" He snapped.

"I'm not trying to patronise you-"