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Chapter 5~ Questions

(Y/n)'s P.O.V.

I sat on the edge of the roof staring out at the other buildings. While I sat there I thought about what had just happened. I wondered why it happened and why it hurt me so much to see him again. I questioned why he had acted so hostile towards me and why it felt like I had been stabbed in the heart. My mind was like a freeway during rush hour traffic, cluttered and chaotic. My brain was overwhelmed to say the least. I was confused and concerned, not for me, for my old friend. I felt myself start to tear up again. I sighed and pushed back the tears. I pulled out my phone. I needed something to distract me from the ciaos. I clicked on a song that I had often listened to, especially when I was sad. I took my (f/c) headset off of my shoulders and onto my head.

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I started to mumble the lyrics to myself as the music started.

Those hardest to love need it most

I watched our bodies turn to ghosts

Such good friends, it has to end it always does

That's the way life is

Do we take that risk?

And so it all boils down to this

We've got our aim but we might miss

We are too fragile just to guess

And I've been in this place before

Fine as we are but we want more

That's human nature at its best

I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes as the song progressed.

What if we ruin it all, and we love like fools?

And all we have we lose?

I don't want you to go but I want you so

So tell me what we choose

I could feel the tears drip down from my eyes I ignored and continued to sing the lyrics under my breath.

Friends, I watched us as we changed

The feelings in my headspace rearranged

I want you more than I've wanted anyone

Isn't that dangerous?

The song started to make me feel better, just a little.

The anticipation before the kiss

Mirrored in my shaking lips

Oh god I feel so unprepared

The two of us so out of place

My feelings written on my face

Got what I want but now I'm scared