𝕭𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖎𝖒𝖆𝖌𝖎𝖓𝖊𝖘

Nothing here is appealing- Awsten Knight

I pushed myself against our bedroom wall, sliding down and sitting on the floor. The tears started to fall with much speed. I felt weak and confused, I just couldn't explain it. I put my head in my hands, sobbing occasionally. The door opened and there was no chance of stopping this even if I tried.

Awsten walked in, doing on something on his phone. "Baby, what's wrong?" He put it away, crouching down to my level.

"I-it came back, Awsten. I-I don't know what to do either." I sobbed with a hiccup, he sat down completely. Pulling me into his lap, holding me tight.

"I know; But it's all normal. Don't worry about it." He calmed me but it was hard to be okay this time.

"H-hey Awsten?" I held his hand, fixing his ring.

"Yes, my love?" He replied.

"Do you think you could um- sing for me, please?" I asked, leaning back into him.

"Your favorite?" He asked, I just nodded and let go of his hand.

"I was bitter but I'm fine now. I pulled my head from its dark cloud. It was easy enough but, but it was too much. A hurricane lives in my bedroom, it keeps me up and wake for round two and I wanna sleep but thats all too much.It's like a bad day in new shoes, a long weekend with curfews. Now I feel like thats all old news. I can't even tell the times I settled for these scribbled lines. Tell me won't you stay awake, stay awake for me. I'm over all the stale days. Captured, I was stuck in place. Tell me won't you stay awake, stay awake for me. I'm thinking off the page and I can't sleep, I'm thinking off the page and I can't sleep." Awsten stopped singing, holding my hands.

"Thanks." I looked up at him, I felt better from just that.

"Of course, babe." He kissed my head, we stayed there for a long while talking about everything.

Sometimes life sucks but it's gets better eventually.