He's not only my boss**' : 2014 ✔️|

Chapter Sixteen: When I want something I get it.**'

Chapter Sixteen: When I want something. I get it.**'

Beyoncé

"Because, I want us together." I said. A small smile appeared on his face. "But, then again I don't." I said. His smile went away. I sighed and he gripped my waist. "What Jayson did, I can do better." He told me. I watched him and turned back around. "Carter, I don't know what I want." I said telling the truth. He sighed. "One moment, I think about you the next moment my mind wonders off on Jayson." I told him.

"I understand. Do you have trust issues?" He asked me. I looked at him and nodded. He chuckled. "I see the problem." He said. "What is it?"

"You love Jayson, but then again you don't. You want to be with me, but you're afraid that I'd do the same thing that you're past boyfriends did to you." He said.

He knew exactly the problem. "Will you do the same?" I asked. He shook his head. "No."

I sighed and turned my head. "I think that I'm too soft. There's a lot that I want to tell you." I said. He nodded. "Tell me."

He brought me towards his couch and sat me next to him. I looked at him. "Can I pour out to you right now?" I asked him. He nodded and looked at me straight in my eyes. I watched him back and water started to form my eyes. I held back the tears. If only he knew.

"I was pregnant back when I was about 20. For Jayson." I said. He looked at me and sat back wrapping an arm around me. "What happened?" He asked.

"I never told him." I said. "What happened to the baby?"

"Abortion."

He gasped and looked away. "Why would you?" He asked. "I was so scared. I didn't know what in the world to do. Me and Jayson wasn't even that close yet. I lost my virginity at a party. At a freaking party Shawn! That child was a mistake that I wish I never let them kill. Jayson for sure wouldn't have wanted the baby. He didn't even want me until I showed how "spontaneous" I could be." I told him. He wiped the tears away from my eyes.

"Everyone makes mistakes Beyoncé.." He told me. I looked at him. "Why did my mistake have to involve a child?! If I ever told Jayson he'd kill me."

He looked like tears were forming his eyes as well. I looked at him. "Carter?" I called. He didn't answer me. I sighed and buried my face in my hands. "I'm a fucking handful aren't I? I don't want you involved in my mess."

"Beyoncé I have mighty respect for you. You came in here and you told me how you truly felt. That's a bonus. But, I understand your situation, and I still want you." He whispered. I lifted up my head and watched him. "Even with all my shit?" I asked. He nodded. "Even with all your stuff."

I chuckled at him not cursing. He took my hand and I stood up. He pulled me close to him and chucked underneath my chin. "You're so beautiful." He whispered. I just watched him and he pulled me in for a hug. "I won't force you to being with me." He said. "You don't have to force anything."

He pulled away from the hug and smiled at me. "But Carter.." I said. He looked at me and pushed the strand of hair that was in my face behind my ear. "I want some of your sex therapy again." I told him. He gave me a little smile. "For what?" He asked.

"I want to know if I can fall in love again.." I told him. He walked away and went in a room. About one minute after he came with a book and we both sat. He looked through the book.

"I found one." He said. I looked at him and crossed my legs. "For three months, I will be giving you the love therapy." He said. "What is that?" I asked. "We won't be together. But, it'll seem like it. For four months I am going to make you fall in love with me." He said. "In only four?"