it didn't stop.
everyday i was fighting with brendon. till neither of us could take it anymore.
so i moved out early.
i didn't say goodbye to my parents. i went while they were sleeping and wrote a note
Dear family,
so the arguing keeps getting worse and i've decided that tbh your better off without me. so i've moved out earlier. i hope it makes you happy. i love you❤️
love from Lana xx
and i was off. our furniture had arrived and we'd set it up already. i packed all my things and carefully left. i didn't bother unpacking. i just fell asleep in the double bed, crying.
i awoke the next day to see ryan and my parents together. "really? i move away to stop the problem and you want more?" i muttered. "babe, it's okay. they're here to talk, that's it" ryan said approvingly. ugh.
"why'd you leave?" sarah asked sadly. "don't you guys see? i'm tearing this family apart. i keep starting stuff up. i can't stay in a place that has became a place full of yelling because of me"
"lana there's five people in our family and two of them don't speak english. look even i know i have a temper. and that's my fault. blaming yourself isn't going to do anything but hurt you" b said, sounding disheartened."look whatever it is i'm sure you guys can fix it" ryan said, comfortingly. i wasn't sure if i agreed. "lana, please. tell us what's wrong. whatever it is, it won't change the amount of love we have for you" sarah said softly. "i don't know" i whispered. and i genuinely didn't. i didn't know why i'd awake throwing up with my mother tying my hair back, i didn't know why i was happy one second and yelling the next. and i did not know why the fuck i enjoyed peanut butter so much now. i hate peanut butter.
"wait" ryan said, with fear. "c-could you guys give us a sec?" he asks my parents, shaking. "sure" they left the room. "babe, did we use protection?" he whispers. "i don't know, did you?" i ask. "i-i don't remember. could you be pregnant?" he mumbled. shit. was i?
"i'll get a test today" i said. "good ideal
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Fanfictionlana is now 18 and has graduated and is ready to move on with her life and follow her dreams without stress, hate or her mental health getting in the way. but with collage bullies, ryan's alcohol addiction, album stress, constant arguing with her pa...