TIM POV: Faith fell asleep in my arms tonight, which is an improvement from about a week ago, when she tried to stab me with a spoon... I don't know how, or why actually, but something just clicked between us.
I move a bit to try to fix my arm, which has now fallen asleep. She's smiling in her sleep, and it's kind of adorable. She's definitely a hell of lot different than I expected. She's complex, and I kinda like it...
"Don't...." She says in her sleep, clenching onto my chest, skin and all. She must be having a nightmare. She starts to tense up, before tears slip out of her eyes.
"Faith?" I say, but she doesn't wake up. I'm quickly met with murderous screams.
"Scott!" she screams, burying her face in my chest. "Take me..."
"Faith, wake up." I say, giving her a shake. She quickly opens up her eyes and sits up. She covers her mouth, then starts to sob. "Hey, what's wrong?"
"It was just a nightmare." She says, as if she was trying to convince herself.
"Honey," I start. She stands up and pushes me away.
"Stop."
"Stop what?" I say, following her.
"I'm going to hurt you." She says, backing into the kitchen island.
"Faith, you're not going to hurt me." I say. She takes a few deep breaths and slides down on the floor. "You okay?" I ask.
"I think." She replies, sounding much calmer.
"Was is about Scott?"
"Yeah..."
"You were screaming."
"I'm sorry." She says, running her fingers through her hair. I sit down beside her and wrap my arm around her.
"It's alright." I say, giving her a little squeeze. She places her head on my shoulder.
"Thank you for dealing with me." She says.
"No problem." I laugh and she smiles. When I look down at her, she leans in to kiss me. She pulls away and smiles again.
"I'm sorry... I just..."
"That's fine." I say, smiling a bit myself. She gets a bit of a daring smile on her face as she straddles my legs to sit on my lap. "What you doin'?" I laugh.
"What does it look like?" She smiles and kisses me again, slowly unbuttoning her shirt. I smile, and run my fingers down her back. She runs her hands under my shirt, before taking off to reveal every scar on me. She pauses and covers her mouth for a second. "What happened?"
"A car accident and my dad." I explain. She stands up, and I do the same. I wrap my arms around her and sway back and forth with her.
"It was that bad?" She asks.
"Yeah..." I say.
"That's sick."
"I know," She looks down at my surgery scars. "trust me." I run my fingers through her long, blonde hair. She looks back up to me, before resuming our kiss.
"I love you." She says, between kisses.
"I love you too." I say back. I mean it too. Last time I felt like this for someone, it was with.....
I curl around Faith, with both of my arms wrapped around her as she sleeps. I haven't closed my eyes at all. What if I hurt her too? I can't stop thinking. My head just keeps racing through all the possible scenarios. Jana.... Her laugh is taunting me. I can't hurt Faith too.... I don't deserve her.....
I'm just getting out of prison, she deserves better. She deserves someone.... like Scott. I don't fit the bill.
I sit up on the edge of the bed, making sure not to wake her up. I look down at her.
"Tim...." Jana's voice says. "let her go... before you hurt her too". I cover my ears, but I can still hear her. What have I done?
I find some post-it's in one of the kitchen drawers.
Call me when you get a chance -Tim, I write. I can talk to her about this later. Right now, I just need to just seclude myself. I stick it on the coffee pot, knowing she drinks coffee every morning. My hands begin to shake as I grab my jacket.
I peel out of the driveway as fast as I can. I need to get home. I struggle to breathe as I clench onto the wheel for dear life. What's going on with me? Am I having a panic attack?
I pull into the parking lot, and run up stairs. Once I get in my apartment, I collapse down on the couch, and briefly pass out.
I wake up to see that it's five.... at night. The answering machine is flashing like crazy as I pry myself off of the couch. I stumble a bit as I hit the play button.
"Message one on December 18, 1989: Hey, uh, Tim... it's me. I just.... I just wanted to make sure everything's okay with you.... and me... So... um... yeah, just give me a call back okay? Thanks, bye." She sounds like she's on the verge of a breakdown.
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FanfictionThe Past.... two words Tim and Faith wish to forget... Tim, coming from an abusive household, is scared to settle down. Faith, who has been passed from foster home to foster home, has no one to trust. The two meet by fate, although both have no inte...