homiesexuals

mother trucker dude

school. something bambam definitely was not looking forward to. he had already begged his mom to skip school, but she said no.

he had been crying all night, and not sleeping at all. bambam didn't bother with putting on makeup or nice clothes either, he felt too sad.

just a grey sweater with the hood on, and a pair of black skinny jeans. he hadn't even brushed his hair out.

he was so confused. why did yugyeom ignore him? minghao was lying about him liking bambam, wasn't he? yugyeom wouldn't have ignored him. had bambam gone too far with saying how much he missed him? he felt like he hadn't gone far enough.

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"hey bam- woah." jaebum widened his eyes, looking at the boy. he had bags under his eyes, his hair was a mess, and he hadn't even put on makeup.

bambam simply plopped down on the bench next to him and stared intently at the table.

"are you okay?" jaebum asked softly.

"does it look like it?" bambam muttered, his voice hoarse and weak.

"what happened?" jaebum questioned, and bambam pulled his phone out of his pocket, going to the messages he sent to yugyeom.

jaebum read it, seeing the little read icon under the message. he winced at that. why didn't yugyeom answer?

"what the fuck?" jaebum shook his head, standing up with bambam's phone. "i'll be back." he muttered. bambam didn't hardly notice what he was doing.

jaebum stomped over to the table yugyeom sat at, laughing with baekhyun and others.

"KIM YUGYEOM!" jaebum shouted, grabbing the back of his shirt and yanking him from the table.

"what the hell bro?" yugyeom groaned, standing up from the ground.

"what the hell is the meaning of this?" jaebum asked with venom laced in his voice, showing him the phone.

yugyeom chewed on his bottom lip, looking at ground instead.

"hey, fucking look at me! have you seen bambam? he looks fucking miserable! his face is tear stained and he didn't even brush his hair! it doesn't even seem like he ate!"

"i-i just.. i didn't know what to say.." yugyeom mumbled, still not looking at jaebum.

"maybe that you fucking miss him too? dude, look at him!" jaebum seethed, pointing over to bambam, who sat there all alone, holding his head in his hands.

yugyeom looked up and saw him, frowning. but he turned away from jaevum and sat back down at the table, smacking his head on the table, startling the group of boys that sat with him.

jaebum groaned in annoyance and walked over to bambam, rubbing his back and trying to comfort him.

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kimchi:
remember when we went to the park and you taught those kids how to dab lmao you're so dumb
and the time you got up on top of the lunch table and starting singing "now watch me whip watch me nae nae" and you basically got internet famous cause everyone was recording you
oh and the time we were at the mall and went inside the pet store and you took your time petting every single one of the cats and dogs and birds but freaked out when we got to the lizards and bugs
hey and that time where we went ice skating and you kept falling on your ass and even pulled me on top of you once and we hit our heads really hard
ooh and the time we snuck out of your house real late and had a 2 am picnic and fell asleep outside while looking at the stars
and when we went to your cabin up in the mountains and played in the snow with gumiho and made a fire and made smores
and when we wanted to know how to ball a watermelon so you spent the night at my house and balled fucking watermelons and had a watermelon ball fight out in the backyard
and then after that we got into my hot tub for like an hour and we were really tired and fell asleep on the cement and my mom had to wake us up
i remember when you drowned in the pool too. it scared me so much i thought you were gonna die and that i was gonna lose you. i don't know what i would have done if you died and i didn't want to lose you because you're my best friend ever in the whole wide galaxy and no one could ever replace and i never want to lose you or be separated from you because when i am i'm bored and don't know what to do with myself and i feel empty without you
yet here i am, letting you go and it's because i'm stupid and i'm a dumb hormonal teenager but that's hardly an excuse because i was a dumbass for doing the shit i did but you're a dumbass too
we both fucked up and i regret it because if we stopped being friends what's really the point in living
and if you don't want to answer me can you at least eat, you're already skinny enough
and brush your hair and go all out with your makeup and fashion because that's so cool that you're so confident in yourself that you don't care what other people think
but even though you pretend because you think you're just some dumb little faggot boy AND YOURE NOT!! you're amazing okay
just take of yourself please
and don't be so hard on yourself
and i'll always wait for you
however long it takes

bambi is typing...

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cliff hangers are cool too!! also writers block who?