My Story: Kelly

Chapter 9

Kelly Brown-Williams 1993
September ~

'What's going on?' I found her again outside sitting on the bench as she soon got up 'Wait, I'm not going to upset you'

'Well what do you want from me then?' She asked

'I just want to know if you're okay' I tried giving her a friendly smile

'Do I look like I'm okay?' She spoke with so much sorrow in her voice as my mood dropped

'I saw what they were calling you out there' I said

'Please, why do you have to remind me?' Her eyes got glossy

'I'm sorry, I didn't mean too- who am I kidding, how can I help you when I'm going through shit myself?' I gave up as it got silent

'What are you going through?' She asked me, wiping her tear from her sleeve

'A situation no one wishes to ever be in' I stated

'Worse than people reminding me that I'm no good because of my size, my parents constantly bringing shame on me because I don't meet up to their standards of beauty, feeling like I gotta eat to make myself feel better about myself when really I just do more harm to myself, worse than wanting to kill myself because people can't accept me for who I am so you can't accept yourself anymore.' she opened up to me as my eyes began to get wide

'Umm-Umm.......' I stumbled on what to say in complete shock

'Look at you, you're beautiful, I bet every boy in the school wants to date you. Everywhere you walk, people talk good about you, how pretty you are. You are elegant with the slim hourglass figure every boy fanaticises about on a women. But all I get is how no boy wants to date me, I'm ugly, people poke fun at me wherever I walk, I look like a muffin.......how can you possibly be going through anything worse than me?'

'If you knew one thing about me, you would regret asking me that question' I stormed of

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'Where were you?' Nick caught up with me 'It's like after I dropped you off, you were nowhere to be found'

'I went to the bathroom' I plainly said

'Yeah but afterwards-'

'I saw you, you were out in the hallways with your boys as you were all laughing at something' I got to my locker to get my books out for my second lesson

'If you saw what we were laughing at.....' He started to laugh

'Yeah I saw, I didn't find anything funny about that' I slammed my locker tight, walking away from it

'Now what's up with you now?' He rushed after me

'Nothing, I'm just trying to get to my class' I was getting annoyed as I tried to speed up

'Oh so this is not the right time to ask you then' He knew a problem was about to occur

'Yes, you're right, come and ask me when you learn to act your age' I finally got away from him

How can you go with your big 17 year old self and your boys, poking names at a girl (that's just got a little more body than the other girls) then to go and try to ask me out (I think)?

I made my way into this room where the first thing you was seeing was a stage that had several seats around it, with a class full of people

'Miss Williams!' The White lady called out my last name 'You're late'

'I am?' I was confused 'I thought I was early' Some sniggers were earned but I was being serious

'Ah you think you're funny?' the teacher was being sarcastic 'Just sit down somewhere and stop wasting my time'

Dang.......

I walked over to an empty seat in one of the rows that was partly filled with students chatting quietly to their peers.

'Do you fucking mind?' I heard her voice turning the corner of my eye to see that DeVante was beside her

Is it everywhere I go, her and her lil boyfriend always gotta be in the same place as me?

That's not even the issue at the moment, what's got me more curious is why the hell is DeVante in this class? Acting was the last thing he would do, even all the embarrassing things he did that I never knew.......like he thought him reading books was embarrassing, like that's educating the mind or when he told me he writes love songs, I thought that was hella cute........but enough of the reminiscing.

'Wow!' I mouthed out in shock and laughter due to DeVante's appearance, ignoring Ashley 'Never knew a gangsta dude like you was into theatre'

'You think I had a choice' he acted as if somebody forced him

'Awh your lil girl makes your choices for you' I forced a smile

'What the fuck!' He cocked his head at me 'No-'

'YOU TOO!' The white lady pointed at me, DeVante and Ashley's direction

'Yes what about-' Ashley stood feeling proud as the teacher stopped her

'NOT YOU!' She put Ashley in her place 'DeVante and Williams!'

'My name is Kelly' I corrected her

'I don't care!' I kissed my teeth at her comment 'you too will make a good onscreen couple for the play Romeo and Juliet' My eyes felt as if they were going to pop out

'But Miss, you know me and DeVante are a thing, and we have that chemistry' Ashley was lowkey mad

'Okay, but this is for a play and it's nice to see something different' miss insisted

'Ugh that's not fair!' I could hear her plump herself back into the seat with anger

Dang you think I wanna do this too?

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