My Story: Kelly

Chapter 25

1992

'THEY GOT RITCHIE!' DeVante was shouting on the phone in fear

'WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY GOT RITCHIE?' I was shocked 'WHAT DID YOU DO?'

'You know when you told me not to go to-'

'I FUCKING SENT HIM TO WATCH AFTER YOU SO YOU DON'T DO ANY STUPID SHIT, NOT FOR HIM TO GET SHOT!' My heart was racing as I wanted to drop the phone

'Look I'm sorry, I didn't know shit was gonna end up this way!' He sounded terrified

'WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN YOU DIDN'T KNOW!' I wanted to slap him 'YOU KNOW MY DAD IS CRAZY AS FUCK AND HE'LL KILL ANYONE THAT MESSES WITH HIM!'

'Kelly calm down, it's gonna be Okay' he tried to reassure me as a tear fell down my cheek 'please don't cry'

'How can I when Ritchie could be dead and you could've been' I let my tears freely run down my cheeks 'Where are you now?'

'I don't even know' he said

'OMG!' I muttered to myself

'Kelly.......' DeVante said

'Please.......please stay safe......' I spoke through my tears

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Those same tears I cried that day, I'm crying right now. Crying because it was all my fault. I should've done something, prevented this situation from happening, no one would've died that day.......no one would've got locked up........no one would've went away from me, all just for money.

This is another guilt I carry with me in shame along side with not being with my mom when she needed me the most. Even though my relationship with my father (I hate calling him that) didn't work, I could've at least convinced him into not doing anything and giving them back their money, but what did I do, I put Ritchie's life in danger.

'Kelly' I heard a knock on my door as I quickly wiped the tears of my face

'Don't come in!' I rushed my sentence but obviously Christina didn't hear 'I said DON'T COME IN!' I shouted even louder frightening her

'Kelly, darling......calm down....' I realised I was breathing heavily due to anger 'What is wrong?'

'Nothing for you to know' I was sniffling

'Kelly-' I felt her presence come towards me as I stared at my reflection in the mirror as my eyes were puffy 'you can tell me anything'

'What!' I turned around in shock and bewilderment 'I can tell you anything? Half the time you not even in the house and I barley get to talk to you, I can't tell you anything!'

'Kelly you know I have to work long hours during the weekdays' she said

'But what about weekends?' I asked as she went quiet 'exactly you don't even make any time for me, I would only see you in mornings and evenings, between those times I forget half the time I'm being fostered. Do you even make time for Kim?'

'Of course I do, don't ever ask a question like that to me again!' She said sternly but it didn't phase me

'Well I suggest you don't ever try to say I can talk to you about anything because it doesn't look like that will be happening anytime soon' I looked away from her

'Now I don't know how you were raised to respect people but I will not tolerate this behaviour in my house, as long as you're under my roof, you will obey me and treat me with respect' she told me strictly

'Well-' I got up from my chair 'except me to be out by tomorrow then' I walked out of my room

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The Next Day

'KELLY!' I rose my head from my desk as Mrs Coleman shouted my name

'Wake up!' Ashley threw a scrunched up piece of paper at me

'Ashley, was that needed?' Mrs asked her as I was still trying to recover from my nap

'I was just trying to help you wake her up' Ashley innocently said as she turned her head, forcing a smile

'Well Miss Ashley you are not the teacher, I am and if I wanted help, I'm sure I would've asked for it' she told her 'don't try and play smart around me and I'm not stupid'

'Urghh!' Ashley growled quietly to herself

'Now Kelly What have you written so far since you finished before everyone else as you were knocked out in a deep slumber' Mrs Coleman took up my papers from the desk

I really don't know why she's so interested in what I have written on the paper, I've only written like two paragraphs.

'This ain't a show!' Mrs was talking to everyone else in the class who got distracted 'Get back to work'

Sat with my hand on my face waiting for Mrs' response to my lack of work, my eyes wandered slightly on what Ashley was doing as I slowly turned around to see Nick as his eyes were glued to the paper in front of him as his pen raced across it. I had a few seconds to look at DeVante as he continued to sit in the same lazy posture with one leg stretched out further than the other as he slouched. My heart started to beat as his head lifted up slightly, nearly making my brown eyes come in contact with his hazel ones.

'See me after class Kelly'

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