My Story: Kelly

Chapter 10

Kimberly Williams 1993
September ~

'Before she left for school, she raised her arm a little and I saw small streams of scratches on the inside of her lower left arm' I said remembering the scratches earlier in the morning

'Are you sure you weren't hallucinating?' Dylan asked as if I was crazy

'The girl is suicidal, I can't make this shit up' I said

'Have you tried talking to her about?' He asked

'She doesn't want to talk to me about anything' I sighed quietly in the phone

'What happened?' He asked

'You know how DeVante is Kelly's ex, I wanted to talk to her about it as she looked down and she threw a major tantrum at me' I explained 'she hasn't spoken to me since and I'm scared to even talk to her, she doesn't even consider me as a sister' I started to slouch on my bed, feeling my mood go down

'Have you given her time to herself?' He asked

'She's had plenty of time, she locks herself away from people, like I thought we were getting along great and now it's like she doesn't even know me'

'When you find the time, just try and talk to her' he insisted as I heard shuffling

'Who else with you?' I ignored his suggestion

'It's just me and the boys, you know I got practice' he said 'wait you don't trust me now?' He asked

'Don't put words in my mouth Dylan, I was just wondering' I started to get mad a little bit

'Why the attitude, I was just asking a simple question' he sounded confused

'Yeah but you're acting as if I couldn't trust you when I was just simply asking who else you were with' I explained sitting up on my bed

'I didn't know you were going to take it literally' he thought

'Whatever, I need to go anyways' before he could say anything, I hung up the phone

I chucked the phone as I watched it fly across my room, slamming myself onto the bed, sighing deeply.

'So for me to go and talk to Kelly as if things are good......how the hell is that going to work?' I said to myself

I got myself up again waking towards my bedroom door, opening it so I could go to Kelly. I don't even know if she's in here, but knowing how private she is and quiet, she's probably in the house.

'Kelly it's me, Kim-Kimberly' I knocked on her door gently

I didn't hear a sound.......

'Look, I know you're mad at me, but I'm really sorry' I apologised 'I don't like the fact that we have to act like strangers-'

'What are you doing?' Her voice echoed in my ears as I felt like a complete idiot

'Oh, um I thought you were in there' I spun around quickly as a awkward smile came across my face

'I need to get to my room Kimberly' she said waiting for me to move

I analysed her face as it looked soft, she didn't look sad or stressed.....probably irritated because I was in her way. I looked at her arms which were both covered so I couldn't see the scars on her left arm.

'I'm really sorry Kelly, I didn't mean too-'

'No I'm sorry' she opened her door as I followed wanted to know more to her apology

'I should've been open in the first place to you, I bottle my feelings inside me and I react by doing this-' she threw her bag onto the floor as she walked towards me showing the scars on her left arm from earlier '-Don't tell Christina this, I'm not dying I'm fine, I just had to let my feelings out'

I was caught of guard by what she meant by Christina, realising it was my mom she was referring to.

'But Kelly, this is not healthy for you' I said to her still looking at the cuts before she pulled her sleeve down

'Me and DeVante were together for two years, we started dating when we were fourteen.....Young right?' She ignored my sentence as she started to open up 'he was my first for everything like first kiss, first real boyfriend, first person to loose it too, he was the first boy I told I love you'

Going along with her story as she's actually opening up to me, I ask her a question 'How comes you too didn't last?'

'He left me....that's when I knew my life was slowly coming to an end' she explained

'What do you mean by that?' I get comfy on her bed

'I want to say it's all his fault but it isn't-' she paused '-we lost contact with each other. He said he would visit me but he never did and due to me moving to different foster homes, I couldn't get to him'

Kelly didn't say anything after that as she went over to sit next to me on her bed.

'It's just sad that I finally get to see him......in love with somebody else' she started to sob 'like I remember when we were together, he told me he was In love with me, now I'm starting to think if that was even true'

'Have you tried talking to him?' I asked

'Did you see what he did on the first day? All he has towards me is hate' she said

'Well all I know is that he's missing out on a lot, I could tell you would die hard for someone you love and for him to have told you that he loved you and act like that, is such a dickhead move, trust me he's missing out'

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