My Story: Kelly

Chapter 85

Kelly Brown- Williams 1994
June ~

'What do you think about adoption?' Kim randomly asked

'What about it?' I turned my head to her direction

'You know.........you've been my foster sister for like nearly a year now-'

'I don't want to go back to the shelter' I cut Kim off

First coming to North Carolina, I was like.........Fuck this, I'm out........I literally didn't like it here at all. It was such a different atmosphere, I had to adapt to very quickly. Too many girls up here looked and sounded bitchy, the boys- the boys were so immature. I hated the fact that they picked on Kayla for her weight, like you don't have any idea what that person could be going through behind closed doors.

I wasn't really getting on with anybody then, I found myself being very bitter because of who I should or should not trust, like it just wasn't for me at all. I liked the quiet peace to myself, I could think without any distractions.

Now that I think I have found peace with myself in a different way and I'm finally starting to get along with others...........well except Ashely, Jasmine and maybe Dylan (Yeah, Kim told me how Dylan tried to flip it on me- pussy ass bitch!).......... I kinda wanna stay here now.

'Who said you were going back?' Kim asked

'After my mom died, I was put into several homes and I knew they would never last so I would always think of the shelter as home for me, since I got used to coming back there for like after a week.......' I started to laugh while explaining my story 'to be honest, I didn't think that I would be staying here for this long either- I thought I was gonna have to pack my stuff up and leave- but now that I've grown comfortable in North Carolina, I really just don't want to go back'

'Well I know for a fact that you're not going back there' Kim said with all certainty in her voice

'But what happens if I have to go back there?' I said 'I want to stay here, but then you have the government and shit and might put me in a different house- NO! They could send me back to my father as foster care isn't a permanent move.......' I started to worry

The fear of going back to my father.......(well I hate calling him that). I'm not saying he would hurt me, but I know for a fact he would never care for me like he's spent doing all of my eighteen years of living. I can't live in the same house were this man, my own flesh and blood has killed my mother- I can't do that.

'Your father is in jail, he ain't getting you back'

'You know how the system works, he could get out on bail or get out early if he fesses to the crime when asked to get out earlier- he'll be back in the streets in no time'

'So- he doesn't know where you are- would he come looking for you?' Kim asked

'As I said, I'm still his biological daughter, he can get any info on me and find out where I am since he hasn't done any physical damage to me. If he did abuse me, he wouldn't be able to find me, restraining orders would've been ordered so as long as he's behind bars, I'm safe'

(Next day)

'You kept on staring at me the whole time as if I was the damn screen!' Me and Nick came busting out the cinema room through the doors

'What?-' he didn't seem to think there was a problem 'I ain't allowed to look at you?'

'No- that's not the case' I quickly said

'Then what?' He looked at me as if I was crazy

'We went to watch above the rim, not go and watch me!' I rolled my eyes playfully

'Well I enjoyed watching you- I also know a movie we could both star in and it would be so much-'

'You sound like K-Ci, with your nasty self' I laughed

'K-Ci?' He was confused

'Yeah K-Ci- you don't know who he is?' We made our way out the building, to the car park

'I know who he is, it's just bizarre that you compared him to me' he said

'Ohhh, well K-Ci likes to be dirty minded a lot. Like he has these times when he would say something absurd at the most inappropriate times- he thinks I want him, he could never keep his head straight when he's looking all up on me' I said

'I swear he has a girl?' Nick said

'Exactly and she's one of my best friends' I also said

'Well he can just look, he can't touch' he said

'Whatchu tryna say then?' I stopped and looked at him weirdly

'He don't have the privileges I got Shawty' Nick started to sound a little cocky as he walked up closer to me

'Nick we go out on one date and you think you've got privileges' I folded my arms

'Well-'

'Well what?' I cut him off

Nick bit his lip as I swallowed nervously not sure what he was going to do next. We both started staring in each other's eyes, closing the gap between us as it grew more silent, only hearing the light wind blowing gently through the starry night. He showed of that panty dropping smile that I absolutely admired about him and before I could get a few seconds left to appreciate it, his lips came crashing onto mine. My eyes closed as I was enjoying the moment. I tilted my head as I was getting into it, with his hands wrapped around my waist and my arms snaking around his neck.

*Beep Beep*

ARGHHHH! Who the hell is this now!

I parted my lips from Nick and reached into my pocket quickly only to see it was DeVante beeping me.

'He knows I'm on a date, why the fuck would he do that?' I uttered to myself

'Everything alright?' Nick asked

'Yeah yeah........it was just DeVante' I said then realising it was the wrong thing to do

'DeVante?' He was confused

'Oh- um basically he must've asked me to go over our school play tonight and I told him I couldn't because I'm going on a date with you' I explained

'You sure he's not trying to find ways to get close to you?' Nick asked, causing me to look at him weirdly

'No-no why would you say that?' I asked

'Well he is your ex after all-'

'Yeah I know that, we're just friends he's not interested in me anymore and I'm not interested him anymore too' I said walking to the other side of his car

'O-okay.......' he didn't sound convinced

What the fuck is that supposed to
mean?

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